Eternal Blitz

27. Explodes

*trigger warning- this chapter contains mentions of abuse*

𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐳𝐞

I was on top of the world, my girl was being herself and of course, pushing me out of my comfort zone but I welcomed it with open arms. I was finally letting myself live, letting myself feel what could have been expressed as a type of love. I don't know what this love feels like but maybe this was it, maybe that's what this was becoming.

It was always a foreign concept to me not having much to rely on when it came to experience. What I thought was love turned out to be anything but and I've never allowed myself to get close to it since.

The moment I released inside of her there was so much emotion shown in her eyes as she looked up at me. It was hard to decipher what each one was but it was even harder to understand what I was feeling in that moment. How she made me feel.

But all of that dissipated as soon as I heard her voice and saw her face. The face I've loathed since the day she first hit me. I spent so much time trying to forget all of those memories and with one look at her, they come rushing back like rapids in a river. I never thought I would be back in that place again; the one I spent so much time escaping from.

"Hello, sister."

That signature sinister smile appears as the words leave her mouth and I'm frozen. Not only from fear but what those words mean. Blitz's sister is dead, she doesn't have any other siblings, does she? Why would she lie to me? Would she lie to me?

Blitz looks back and her face falls as she sees me. Confusion. Anger. Anguish. I don't know what to think but seeing Fallon after all she's put me through is like a reset button on all of my progress. In mere seconds I've become that scared little boy again or at least that's what she called me. The person she made me, manipulated me into being. I let that piece of me go but no sooner than I saw her he was back with a vengeance.

"You've got some nerve you psychotic bítch." Blitz growls covering my now flaccid penis as she zips my pants.

"Feisty." Fallon bites, smiling at Blitz as she rises from her knees. "Someone has a temper like her mother, and someone else has a thing for family members."

I back into the wall as Fallon steps towards me, her path cut off as Blitz stands in front of her protecting me. It's comical how backward the situation is, most of the time the men are the protectors but this time it's Blitz.

"You're reaching trying to call us family. I don't even know you." Blitz grabs my hand pulling me closer to her body as she stares down Fallon.

"No," Fallon admits. "But I know you. I mean what kind of sister are you stealing something that belongs to me."

Blitz scoffs below me. "He's not a belonging. And if he was he sure as hell wouldn't belong to you."

I smirk to myself knowing what her words meant. I take a second to look between the two, their likeness not even registering a bit as I try to find something they have in common. They look like complete opposites in every way. I'm not sure what to think, my brain isn't processing the situation in front of me, and while I'm trying to stay calm and keep my distance from Fallon every part of me wants to flee right now. 

I can feel her gaze on me, her eyes tearing me apart and I squirm edging to feel very uncomfortable in her presence. If there was one thing I didn't miss it was the effect her eyes had on me, the hold they had because it only took one look for me to give in to whatever it is she asked of me. Her ability to frighten me with just a look, break me down to the point where I wished I was dead because living with her was too much for me to bear.

She always called it her capital. Her way of owning me and using it to her advantage. I used to like it, her gaze was never one I learned to despise until the hitting began. After that, I knew what it meant, always the same thing. I was like a toy to her, wound up and tossed aside until she needed me. I was never given a choice but she made sure I never disagreed.

"That's where you are wrong. I let him go and now I want him back and not even a stupid bítch like you could stop me."

I'm taken back as I hear her words. My breathing becomes erratic and my heart pummels me as it rips me apart from the inside out. My body is dead, any movement ceases as I listen to the voices. It's too much and I don't know what to do, how to react. I tug my hair as I try to clear my mind only adding to my sporadic breathing.

My brain is jumbled with thoughts as I push out what's happening and I get lost in my head. Blitz is Fallon's sister, what if this was her plan? Did she know they were related? It was real. Real. Everything I feel for Blitz is real, I know it is. It has to be. She wouldn't do this to me, she knows how I feel. She was there for me, took care of me. But was it real? I don't know what to think.

At this moment it's like being hit with a book. A reminder of everything she did to me, every word she ever said to me. Every hit, every disgusting kiss maimed my brain and signs its name as it falls onto me. I see it all, not just a vision but I relive it, I can feel it happening. The pain and the torture my body went through because I couldn't be a man. Because I was too weak to protect myself.