Eternal Blitz

30. Reminiscing

𝐁𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐳

The room is silent as we eat, the only sounds heard are the cutlery knocking against plates.

I glance to my right at Blaze and comb my fingers through his hair as he eats. Part of me is terrified to let go of him now, after what I saw earlier due to his nightmare I panic anytime he's alone afraid of it happening again.

The moment I saw his body in a panic, mine shut down. It only took a second before the adrenaline kicked in. Unfortunately, this was a common occurrence with Isa when my sister died, the only difference here is how foreign it felt. It was as if everything I know was forgotten and the entire time I held him I felt clueless, helpless. I can only imagine how he felt so I pushed any doubts I had away and did my best to keep myself from falling apart all the same.

"Would you like to do something today?" I speak up watching as Blaze pushes his plate away.

He shakes his head. "I-I don't know."

"I'd like to take you somewhere, just the two of us but if you'd like we can stay here instead." I reach across the table and take Blaze's hand in mine. He hesitates to hold it back but after a moment of debating, he links his fingers with mine.

"Okay." He speaks, giving my hand a strong squeeze before releasing it and making his way up the stairs.

I don't bother following him knowing he needs a bit of time for himself. Instead, I clean, settling myself into doing away with the dishes hoping that Blaze can find his way around my room properly.

It was a last-minute decision to bring him here and despite my fussing with Blane about taking him to their home, he came back with me. I was hesitant but I couldn't say no even if I wanted to, I need him around as much as he needs me and I can only hope that he does.

I finally finish the dishes and head to my room. I don't speak as I enter, quietly getting ready alongside Blaze who rummages through the bag of clothes Blane brought over for him. Everyone once and a while when the silence becomes too much I look over checking to see if he's there only to be met with a pair of eyes with the same idea.

A smile.

I don't mention how my heart flutters as I see it each time our eyes meet, only dressing faster with the hopes that I can help and that my plan will do some good. I don't know what he's feeling right now but I'm going to do my best to make sure he feels safe and protected.

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My hand is clasped in Blaze's as I make the drive which to my surprise was not initiated by me. I can't say what the relationship is between us with everything that's happened in the last seventy-two hours but one thing I can say is whatever we are is still going.

Seeing that Blaze has yet to pull away makes me happy because that means, in some way he still needs me. That's not to say some small part of me isn't afraid of what he has to say but it's no longer overbearing.

I pull up to the cliff watching as Blaze looks out the window taking in the familiar environment before stepping out with me close behind as I remove the thick blanket I packed from the car.

Walking to the bench near the edge I lay the blanket just in front of it before propping myself against the front and watching as Blaze makes his way to the edge. His hands fit in the pockets of his pants as he looks over the huge drop.

"Sit with me?" I spread my legs and he turns back, slowly walking over to me. I pat the empty spot between my legs and he sits down laying himself against  my chest. His body relaxes as I run my hands up and down his arms. "Comfortable?" I inquire, kissing his temple and wrapping my arms around his neck as my hands rest softly against his chest.