Right In Front Of You

Chapter 37 - I Can't Break Free

A Week Later;
Suzie's POV;

For the whole week Jeff and I had barely left the bed in the Villa. Sex had never felt so good or so right. My entire body felt like I had taken a battering; I was literally covered in love bites mixed with the occasional teeth marks. Jeff was in no better shape than I was; love bites, teeth marks and scratches adorned his God like body.

I had never experienced anything so consuming before. It just felt like there was a constant hunger gnawing at me in ways that I didn't think I was ever going to recover from.

Sitting down on the sand of the beach that was right outside our Villa. I had left Jeff sleeping after a night full of sex that had clearly drained him, but because of Shaun I was still on a weird sleeping pattern. So after lying next to Jeff for an hour, I had slipped out of the bed, pulled on some cloths, made myself a mug of coffee and let myself out of the Villa.

Staring down at the mug that had long since been drained of its contents; I pondered on going back up to the Villa and making another mug but ultimately decided against it. Instead I lit a cigarette and stared out at the Indian Ocean, my thoughts on home. I hoped that everyone was ok; my sisters and Barry had made me promise not to turn my phone on while I was away.

I knew that turning it on now would mean that I would be flooded with messages from Shaun and that would just put me in a foul mood for the rest of my vacation but not knowing if the people that I held close to me were ok was eating away at me.

I was worried about the club too; it had only been open a month and already I had left it in the hands of someone else, so that I could go on vacation. But I knew that I needed this time away; it wouldn't have been so bad if all I had, had to worry about was the club but no I had the break up on my hands along with the fact that Shaun couldn't seem to get it through his head that he was the one that had killed our relationship.

And once again I was back to thinking about my ex as the sun started to break over the horizon with the promise of another beautiful day in paradise. The orange streaks broke through the dark night sky reminding me of a fire dying down to nothing but amber ashes.

What was I going to do about Shaun?

I had promised everyone that should he still be presenting a problem when I got home then I would go to the police and file a complaint.

But how was I meant to do that?

I had, despite everything, loved the man once. I had told him that I would always, no matter what happened, love him.

Was that why he was finding it hard to let go?

Did he think that cheating was that one thing that I would forgive?

If he did think that then he didn't know me very well. More than anyone he should know that cheating was the one thing that I despised more than anything else. I had to have trust with someone and how could I have trust with Shaun when he had betrayed me the way he had?

No I couldn't forgive and forget all he had done! Not when he had taken some cheap tart in to our bed; not when he had taken everything that we had built and shit all over it. I just couldn't, I had no trust in him anymore and absolutely no respect for the man he was.

And now there was Jeff to consider; what I felt for him far surpassed anything that I had ever felt for Shaun. I couldn't explain it; all I knew was that I could feel Jeff all the time, even when he was on the road with work, I could feel him all over me. For risk of sounding cheesy; it was like my soul was linked to his and ever since that first night a week ago, it was just getting stronger.