Right In Front Of You

Chapter 22 - It Should Be Me

The Core Lounge; A few hours later;
Jeff's POV;

The club was pumping once again, it was literally at bursting point. Standing up in the VIP area where I was hanging out with Matt, Shannon, Heather and Britt. I moved away from them and stood at the balcony area, looking out over the club and finding Suzie as if my eyes knew exactly where she would be. I didn't understand what was happening to me, I couldn't seem to look away from her as she stood on the customer side of the bar, she was stood in front of Gilby both were dancing and laughing.

My heart thundered a dangerous rhythm against my chest and I was worried that the whole club could hear it above the loud, raunchy guitar of the beginning of Don't Cry by Guns N' Roses; Gilby's arms claimed her softly in to his embrace and they began to dance slowly and sexily to the music. Anger welled in me so quickly as she ran her hands up his arms and around his neck, while his arms snaked around her curves and his hands rested on the spot just above her ass.

I watched the way her cloths sat over her frame, I watched the way she turned her ear to his lips and he whispered in to her causing her to laugh as her head fell back, the smile played across his lips and it took all of my self control to remain where I was stood and my eyes continued to torture me as I watched the way their bodies came closer together and continued to dance.

My heart thundered in my chest at the sight of her, my mouth turned dry and my palms turned sweaty. I didn't want to feel this way; especially now that she had made it completely obvious that she didn't feel the same way about me. I had to find a way to get past this, I had to find a way to push my feelings down until I couldn't feel them anymore and the only way that I could see that happening was if I distanced myself from her. Ignoring her call, and fighting everything inside me to not call her back had been tough but I had managed to do it.

"What's going on Nero?" Heather asked stepping up next to me.

"Not much honey,"

"What's wrong?" She asked placing her hand to my arm softly.

"Why would you think there was something wrong?" I asked trying in earnest to look away from the scene of Gilby and Suzie dancing closely, trying in desperation to stop this jealousy building inside me but nothing was working, I was completely at her mercy and I had only known her three weeks.

It wasn't like I was in love with her, but she definitely had a grip on me, and it suddenly felt as if I were drowning and nothing I did could help me break the surface, I was fighting to break free but the more I fought the more I seemed to be sinking.

"'Cos you're not your normal self, where's the jokes and the excitement that you normally have?" She asked me as I watched Barry approaching his best friend and hugging her tightly, which took her from Gilby's arms and I felt my heart return to a more respectable beat.

"I'm just tired sweetie," I admitted half honestly. Since I had witnessed what I had at the girls home, I hadn't been able to sleep. Every time I closed my eyes all I could see was him touching her; him removing her cloths and kissing her body all over, the sounds of her moaning out in pleasure seemed to take the torture to new debilitating levels that I just couldn't seem to be able to deal with.

I should be the one touching her.

I should be the one kissing her.

I should be removing her cloths.

I should be the one kissing her body.

And just like that I was sinking once again, drowning out of all reality and wondering what I had to do, to get this feeling to stop. I would do anything, I would sell my soul if need be. I would crawl on my hands and knees if it meant that I wasn't looking at her like this.