Right In Front Of You

Chapter 46 - Make me Feel?

A Couple of Hours Later;
Suzie's POV;

Waking with a start; my breath laboured, my body caked in a thick blanket of cold sweat and shaking desperately from head to toe from another nightmare and it took me a few moments to realize that I was safe and not back in the club where Shaun had raped me. The rancid smell of sickness however, still lingered in my nasal passage and I quickly stumbled from the edge of the bed and raced for the ensuite where I dry heaved for a few moments. From all the throwing up that I had done tonight there just wasn't anything in my system to come up.

Splashing my face with cold water, I stared at my reflection as the water slid down over the bruise over my left eye until it looked like I was crying. Unable to take the sight, I turned away from the mirror determined not to shed a tear over what Shaun had done to me; I wasn't going to break! Shaun Bremner would never break me; I simply wouldn't allow it to happen.

But as the first splashes of sunlight started to streak through the night sky; my heart seemed to turn a little colder and harder. It was at that moment my eyes landed on Jeff lying face down in my bed but even in the dimmest of lighting I could see the mess of his hand as it hung over the end of the bed as he lazily sprawled out; taking full advantage of the fact that he had the bed to himself.

What had happened to him?

Quickly filling a tub with antiseptic lotion and grabbing the bag of cotton balls, I cleared the room and sank to my knees. Dabbing a cotton ball in to the antiseptic and gently placed it to the still bleeding flesh as a hiss filled the room; his hand quickly turned and gripped my wrist tightly as his eyes popped open.

"What happened?" I pressed softly as his grip on me loosened giving me the option to go back to cleaning the swollen flesh.

"It-it doesn't matt-matter!" He hissed once again as he propped himself up on to his free elbow and watching me closely. "What are you doing up anyway?"

"I had a nightmare!" I admitted gently wiping at the wound as carefully as I could so as not to hurt him, until it was as clean as possible.

"I'm so sorry Z!" He said moving so that he was sat on the very edge of the bed.

"What are you saying sorry for exactly?" I asked sliding the tub out of the way and moving until I was in front of him.

"For not protect..."

"Hey I don't want to hear that from you...ever!" I slowly knelt up on my knees and cupping his handsome features in to my hand. "I don't now or will never blame you baby, so please don't apologize to me ok?"

"But I should never..." He started to object and I could see the true weight of how much he was truly blaming himself and I didn't want that.

There was no one to blame for this except for Shaun; he had been the one who had carried out all those horrible things on, not just, me but on Jeff too and if I could; I would have taken all of Shaun's attack. Jeff should never have been involved in this; it was because of me that he had gotten hurt and now I had to live with that.

Jeff's POV;

The smoothness of her touch amazed me; after all that had happened to her tonight; I had thought for sure that she would have become closed off but as I looked in to those black eyes, I could see the confliction she felt shining at me.

Before I could ask her about it, she was pressing her lips to mine in a kiss so hot that I could instantly feel myself stirring despite being unsure of what she would be ready for. My hands gently cupped her beautiful features.