The Girl In The Dirty Shirt

Chapter 52

"Tell him what?"

"You're not really better"

I sighed inwardly with relief

"Did you go to the doctor?"

"Yes"

"Did you really go or did y'just tell him you went?"

"I went"

"And?"

"I have the flu and really don't feel like making myself sicker, that’s why I'm not drinking or smoking."

He nodded "Anything else?"

"No"

I took another drink from my glass.

"Not pregnant?"

I choked on my water looking at him. I swallowed hard and he just raised an eyebrow.

"No"

He just snorted. "That's what he told you, wasn't it?"

"No" I took another drink

"Look me in the eye and tell me that"

I looked at him and bit my lip.

"You're a good liar when y'want t'be"

"Thanks..." I muttered

"Wasn't a compliment"

"Don't," I shook my head "Please don't treat me like this right now"

"You are"

"A good liar?"

"Pregnant"

I sighed; there was no point in denying it. "Yeah"

"How-"

"Three weeks" I answered quietly

"Is it-"

I shook my head "I don't know" I shook my head again and broke down "I don't know"

He pulled me into his chest and hugged me and let me cry. "I don't know what to do"

"You have to tell-"

I pulled back shaking my head "No"

"Lyla-"

"I can't tell him" I whispered harshly "He would-"

"Be a good dad" Noel nodded

I chewed my lip

"Tell him"

"I-"

"Need to" he finished wiping my cheeks with the palms of his hands

"It might be-"

"His"

"Yours" I said "I-I don't kn-"

"His" he repeated 

"He doesn't want a baby; he's twenty two Noel, the last thing he wants is a baby"

"If you can have sex, you can have a baby"

"Noel" I swallowed hard "I'm not ready for a baby"

I looked at him and saw nothing but pity looking back at me. He knew as well as I did that I was royally fucked.

I broke down sobbing and he pulled me into another hug, muffling my cries. I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him hard, he hugged me back and let me cry. Maybe we could go back to the way it used to be; maybe

I got myself under control and stepped back wiping my eyes. "I'm sorry"

Noel shook his head. "You don't need to be sorry, Lyla"