Nova POV
Fear swept through my body instantly as I heard Malik talking on the phone. It's not like I was trying to be nosy, It's just that I was about to go to the bathroom when I heard him talking. When I first went in there, he was talking to his mom about his lifestyle. When I came back out, he was talking to someone about the shit that they got going on in Detroit. Either he had his phone volume all the way up or it's just so quiet that I got to hear a majority of his conversation.
I tried to get back in the bedroom before he seen me, but when I walked by a curtain I damn near slipped on the end of it, drawing attention to myself. If it wasn't so damn dark in here I would have been able to see my way back to the room. He instantly stood up and came over to me.
"So you eavesdropping on a nigga's conversations now?! Shouldn't you be fuckin' sleep?" He asked with so much aggression evident in his voice. He's never even came at me this way before, but he's probably just annoyed and stressed out.
Tears filled my eyes as I put my hands out to stop him from getting so close to my face. Sometimes he really scares me. I'd much rather him smoke or make corny jokes if that's what makes him happy and at ease.
"Calm down Nova." Some of the tension in his face instantly went away. "It was just a question. I wasn't out with no bitch either, if that's what you think."
"That's honestly not what I thought you were doing. I thought you were pissed off at me and just needed time away from me. And no I wasn't eavesdropping, I had to use the bathroom and I heard your conversation. I really wasn't trying to." Tears spewed down my cheeks. "Malik please don't go. I cant lose you because if I lose you I'll lose myself. I know what I said but, I truly do love you. It's just, I said that because... plenty of reasons. I don't want to lose you but what if you don't make it back?! How would I raise a child that looks so much like you all by myself? Besides Thomas and Omar, you're pretty much all I have. So I should have picked better words and I am truly sorry for that. I forgive you, okay?! I promise I won't bring up what happened anymore. I feel like every person except a f..."
I broke down so much that I couldn't even finish my last statement. I know what I was thinking when I said what I said. I'm just so sick of all of this shit. I want to be happy. I want the both of us to be happy.
"I know Nova. I had to take some time and think about shit from your viewpoint. I'm not all of those people though." His arms wrapped around me so I could lay my head on his chest. "Yeah I fucked up, but I regret it to the fullest because I know that you're the only woman for me. You have to be, otherwise I wouldn't do what I can to keep you. I've never met a female like you. You've made me want to change for the better. You gave me a son. I would love to have a daughter someday too, but having a son is so symbolic to me man. Khali and I, well you see what our father did to us. He had us out there doing all types of dangerous shit like he didn't give a fuck if we lived or not. This is my chance to make sure that my son never has to go through the hurt that I... or I guess I should say the hurt that we went through with our fathers. I know you don't want to hear this, but I have to go. Niggas have a way of finding out shit and I don't want them knowing where you or my son lay your heads at night. I don't know what Khali gonna do, but I know that you'll be staying here in Jamaica until this is over with."
The question is, will this ever be over with? It doesn't seem like it.
"Malik please don't go. I have a horrible feeling about this. I hope and I pray to God each and everyday that he won't take away any more people that I love so much. I pray for your health and I pray that you're protected. Can't you just let the folks already up there take care of it? That's a perk of being a boss, right?"
He lead me over to the sofa then sat down, pulling me onto his lap. "Nov it's not that simple. This dude don't give a fuck about them. I'm sure he's been gunning for Khali and I just because we're the leaders. Take the leader out and the rest of the clique will crumble apart. And from what one of my boys told me, he's fascinated with finding Khali. Why, I have no glue. It don't matter though cause I'm not letting a damn thing happen to my brother. We started this shit together so we in it together."
