Asia POV
I'm so aggravated right now , I could punch a hole in the wall and still be mad. She make it seem like I hurt her feelings. I'm not stupid she could give one fuck about the shit I said. That's just how she is. I just ughhh. My phone started buzzing and I looked down at it and seen that it was my bro Leek.
"Hello" I answered
"THE FUCK I HEAR BOUT YOU AND NOVA BEEFING!!!! I SWEAR TO GOD ASIA , YALL BETTER CUT THAT SHIT NOW. DEAD THAT SHIT. OR ILL DRAG BOTH YALL ASSES AND MAKE YALL SIT IN A MUTHAFUCKING ROOM, FUCK WRONG WITH YOU!! SHE DONT NEED YO INSECURITIES STRESSING HER OUT. THEY NOT GONE TELL YOU BUT SHIT i WILL. YOU BEING A REAL SELFISH, INSECURE, SENSITIVE ASS BITCH. GET YO SHIT TOGETHER BEFORE I HAVE TO MAKE A TRIP." He yelled before hanging up. My vision blurred with my salty tears as I walked to the door and locked it. I slid down the back of it and released my tears. I feel like I'm fucking stuck and can't move . Between a rock and a hard place.
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For the past couple of days, I kept to myself. I stayed in the room or outside to give Tink some fresh air. Khalid sometimes comes in to chill and talk to me and Tink. But that don't last long. Maybe 15 minutes before he take off running to go play the game or chill with the mom's. Majority of the time it was just me and Tink in the room.
One day while she was sleep,i just got tired of being tired and decided to just start searching shit in the web. I typed in How to forgive and move on and a variety of stuff popped up. I clicked the first one and read over it. It did make since but the stuff they wanted me to do was gonna take weeks ,such as forgiving the person , being able to talk to he person with out getting angry and so forth. It was a hard task but I had to do it to move on. I'll start with step one and that's Take the time to Mourn from your lost. It's crazy that I don't even wanna cry.. it's the fact that I wanna fight. I grabbed a pillow from the bed and and threw it on the floor and started goin ham. I began fighting that pillow like My life deepened on it. Blow after Blow I fought it untill I got tired. I didn't stop till thirty minutes later and that's because the feathers from the pillows where everywhere. I knew I had heavey hands but damn. That pillow got fucked up.I smiled to myself as I started bagging the shit into a trash bag. There then was a knock at the door.
"Come In" I said picking up the pillow case and the case that the feathers were in.
"Hey...Wait what happened in here" Desiree said walking in and sitting on the bed. I eyed her cause Tink was up there sleep.
"I'm taking the stages to forgiving and forgetting Nova and ..."
" Uh don't say that hoe name around me. I don't like her. I won't ever like her "
" I don't like her either , But I'm not finna sit around here and mope about it. I'm gonna continue life with out her and Khali"
"Pause, You can't forget Khali. That's the father of your child and You'll have to deal with him for the rest of your life. Eternity . And also you have Khalid calling you mommy. You can't walk outta that boys life like that. It'll fuck up his child hood, Having two moms walking outt on him. Yeah, He'll treat women like bitches forreal cause He'll feel like women will feed him bullshit sweet stuff and then just walk out on him. Like His biological mother and his non biological mother which is you at the time." She said. I eyed her because I wasn't expecting her to get all deep on me.
"Well, I'm not gonna forget about Khalid , Just Khali" I said as she shook her head. " I wanna get enrolled into school, find a job , trasportation and start stacking my bread for Tink and I."
" Did you not hear what I said. I'm not letting you walk out on Khalid. You should've thought about that before you had him calling you mommy"
" I'm not walking out on him D" I semi-yelled.
