The same roof 3|| HEROPHINE

two: scissors

♫-Changes by Lauv

꧁ Josephine's POV ꧂

It's been more than a year.
An year that felt more than 10 years.

The first month: I was completely empty inside. There where days that I didn't open my mouth even to say a simply 'good morning'.
I felt so lost. I kept asking myself even about my existence. I felt so useless as a human.
I wanted be someone else, I was tired being me.
There where days that I refused to eat because I lose even the pleasure of eating.
I was literally dead inside after loosing the only thing, better say person that made me feel alive and shown me how life could be knowing that I always had him, someone to count on,

it was an absolutely nightmare, I was the nightmare.
I fell in a deep depression that I never thought that existed.
Thinking back at that time I feel so sorry for the twins. I was a real nightmare to them.

One night they found me sit on the bathroom floor with my long hair laying on the bathroom floor, while I had a scissors in my hand.
They picked me up from the floor, Grayson took me to my bed and laid in it with me while E was cleaning the floor.
The day after? They didn't made me feel bad for it. Gray used to make me laugh saying that I was looking like Tris in Alligent.

The second month: The only time that I wasn't thinking about him was during the few hours of sleep I had every night. I lost my appetite and I lost so much weight, that I had to be recovered in an hospital.

The third month: my depression and anxiety got worst and I got into a specialized center.
At the end of the fourth month I got back to the apartment with the twins.

The fifth month: I got the first real copy of my book and then I told everyone about it.
I sent a copy to Hero via email and he without even reading the ending that he was so curious about, he told me that I could do whatever I wanted.

The sixth month: my book was rated No.1 by the New York Times as Christian whispered me before I left London.
The number of my followers got higher and my readers finally assumed faces to me.

The seventh month: I felt something.
Something similar that I felt for Hero, so Grayson and I decided to give it a try.
That month was the best ever.
I was feeling so in love and he felt the same way. He treated me so good. He was so careful with me. He gave me so many attention that I never had in my life.
It felt like my life was getting a good way.
I was eating healthy again, I was sleeping again thanks to Grayson that used to hold me tight.
In that month I also unfollowed Hero on social media's and the news that talked about his team.

The eighth month: felt more like heaven, my hair was finally at my boobs. I dyed them in a light brown right like Madison Beer.
Selena called me showing her second baby, Aurora, for the first time while Elle is now so tall and skinny.

The ninth month: I found again the pleasure of working and I got to know Olivia, she's nineteen and she's doing a internship.
She is hated from so many girls at work. They say that she's there because her parents knows Christian but the reality is because Olivia is the most stunning teenager in the building and every guy have eye only of her.

The tenth month: Chris and Eleanor came to visit me and the twins.

The eleventh month: I wrote to Hero for the deco th time after the email of the script, saying how sorry I was about Diesel's death.
Diesel died the day before Hero's birthday.
The day after I also wished him happy birthday and he just answer me with a thanks I hope you're doing good in NYC.

The twelfth month: the twins and I with my sister and Nathan flew to New Jersey, stayed in the house were the twins grew up and spent the Christmas together with their mom and Kristina.

The thirteenth month: I broke up with Grayson because I noticed that he was more in love with me than I was so to not end up with hurting him, I broke up with him and he found a really bea girlfriend that he still with after more than a month.
I hope she's the right girl for him because he deserves it.

The fourteenth month: I spent the Valentine's Day with E since Kristina is back to Australia.
I also started to write again, thing that I tried so many times to do during the other month but I kept failing.

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A/N: Hello my people!
Here we are. Now y'all know
how Jo felt during the whole
year after the break up.
Can't wait to update the next
chapter especially the 6th.
Meanwhile, vote as usual I'll
post at 200 votes, you know it.
Question: do you have Spotify?
If is yes, go to follow me ( valenissi)
I have very organized playlists
and y'all will get to know from
where I got inspiration for these
chapters.
Another question: do y'all have clubhouse?
I would love to do a room with y'all guys 🤍
So we can talk.
-Valentina