The same roof 3|| HEROPHINE

forty-one: not giving you away

♫- Lover Of Mine by 5SOS (LISTEN AT IT)

꧁ Hero's POV ꧂

I was daydreaming about this moment since the very first moment that I read the book.

I asked myself about how could be the feeling to touch her or kiss her, even when the one that was kissing her in front of me was Douglas.

Her skin is softer than I was thinking, her hair are like silk between my fingers, her perfume is more addicting than drugs.

I already know that this will last just for other few more seconds till she realises what we are doing. I wouldn't be shocked if she will walk away right now. Even if I'm not remembering nothing about her, I know for sure that she is not a cheater and that she is also into Douglas.
I mean who wouldn't? I always thought that he was one of the guy that steals everyone heart and I also know that Josephine will not cheat on him.

I caught her off guard and that's why she still not rejected me.

I'm sure she still feels something for me. I can read it in her eyes and besides what she feels, I can read the fear of getting hurt for the second time. I get that, nobody wants to get their heart destroyed.
I can understand that if she has trust issues seeing the way our relationship ended, the Scarlett thing..She doesn't believes in our relationship anymore.

I press my lips on her neck again opening them a bit to let my tongue to caress her skin.
The feeling of her rose petal lips still makes company on my lips even if I just got to kiss the corner of her lips, where her smile begins.

I was expecting to get a flashback or something getting this close to her but nothing.

It's like my body doesn't wants to remember.

I always wanted to remember everything even if I didn't and still don't like what I become that's why I want to remember even harder... I want to learn from my mistakes.

I don't let my thoughts distract me from this moment.
Our breaths are sinking.
The air seems not enough. And when the air seems to not be enough... she stands up like I was expecting her to do.

She looks down to me while she's breading hardly moving her chest up and down quickly.
Her eyes are staring at me wide eyed, the expression in her face it's like she just woke up from a nightmare.

She is so control freak that she acting crazy just for letting herself go for few seconds.

I can see the many thoughts flashing in her eyes but in bold I can see the name of Douglas.
I really wish I could hate him but I can't. He didn't do nothing wrong. I am the only one that has the fault here. I made a mistake making her fall out of love and walk away that easily.

If I didn't let her leave me she probably could never meet him.

I really don't remember much about her but reading the book I understood that she is a over-thinker and I feel a little bad because I know that she will think about this till the next month but this sounds even better to me, this means that she will think of me.

"This-" she tries to say while her voice sounds so shaken, her eyes are filled of guilty that for me look even better because that means that I'm not a stranger to her like she wants make me believe.
"Jo!!" Morgan calls her from the pool side.

She turns in his way and he tells her to reach him with a quick hand movement.

She gives me a quick look.

I watch her walking in Morgz's way while I still feel her warm skin on my lips.

She can think that it's just a moment of weakness but I am not playing.
I want her back.
I want what we heard to have. If it sounds so good in the book I just can imagine how beautiful was our story even if we had to go through some crazy things.