The same roof 3|| HEROPHINE

forty-five: supermarket flowers

♫- Love is weird by Julia Michaels

꧁ Hero's POV ꧂

I really couldn't close an eye last night.
I kept thinking about Josephine and how destroyed she looked.

I kept thinking all the night about the possibility of her getting upset seeing Alicia that close to me.
I couldn't sleep because the guilt was perusing me even in my dreams.

That's was a bad idea. The whole Alicia thing...
I have to stop it now.
We really didn't even start yet but I hate to see her like that. Even if she wasn't that upset because Alicia, I saw how she was looking at her and avoiding my eyes and that's not good.
I'll not sabotage myself and push her far away from me, actually, I have to convince her to not leave.

The fact that she's planning to leave with Douglas really caught me off guard.
I though she was happy to be back and finally have to spend some time with my friends that are her friends now, the Harpers or Elle.
I got so upset about getting to know it that I didn't even greet her when she walked into Felix house.

I decide to skip the gym this morning because she's still sleeping. I guess she's working from home today.
I really want to be here when she walks out of the her bedroom.

I need to know why she's in this conditions even to give me some peace.

Since I got to know that see prefers sweet for breakfast I made her pancakes and cut some strawberries for the topping.

I start to hear some barefoot straps and the I finally see her walking in the open space.
Her eyes are so puffy, sign that she crush all night, her nose red, her hair tied in a high bun and she's all covers with a baggy sweater.

"Hey I prepared you some breakfast." I tell her placing her the plate full of pancakes with strawberries and blackberries.
I see her look down and then curl her lips in a grimace.
"C'mon you have to eat."  I tell her very concerned about her.
She's so skinny and she's skipping so many meals when she's at home, I don't want to think how many meals she skips at work.
"No." she says and a sulk takes place on her face.

She acts like a kid sometimes.

"At least the fruits. I know you love strawberries." I tell her trying to persuade her.
She sighs and grants the strawberries with her fingers and takes them to her moth finally introducing something in her stomach.

"So, what happened? Why your this upset?" I ask her placing my hands on the marble and leaning forward to her.
She keeps biting her berries.
"Douglas broke up with me." she says without no hesitation.

My heart miss a beat.
Did she really said what I was waiting to hear from weeks?

She's single.
She's freaking single!

There is something that I can't make up in my mind, I saw Douglas and how madly in love he was with her... What made him give up on her?
Wait... what if it was me the reason?

"Oh, I'm sorry..." I just say.
She looks up at me and her eyes... they are so tired and without the light that I'm used to see in them.
"Yeah I'm sure you do..." she says sarcastically. At least she didn't lose her humour.

"Surely I didn't wanted to see you like this..." I tell her looking straight into her eyes so she can get how honest I am.
I also liked the guy. Douglas was a great substitute of me, I'm not gonna lie.
"I'll be always wanting the best for you even if the best is Douglas or another guy..." I tell her and my voice gets tight.
"No he deserves better." she says and my heart breaks for her.

She looks so strong, independent and unstoppable but she isn't.
She underestimated herself so much.

"Don't say that." I say walking around the kitchen island to get to her.
Once I'm next to her I don't know what I should do.
"You're worth it and is his loss." I tell her looking at her eating only the strawberries.
"Talks the one that let me go." she says looking straight looking the view from the glass wall in the living room.