C R I M I N A L | K. Bakugo x Reader

Chapter 20

The caravan is so quiet.

I keep listening out for him and i get hopeful with every noise. I check each one in case it's him and he's home.

The alarm clock beside me blinks 6am and it taunts me. The early morning sun is peaking through my curtains but only enough so there's a thin strip of my room dipped in light.

I haven't slept yet but i don't feel tired. I haven't eaten yet but i don't feel hungry. I haven't cried yet but i don't feel like crying.

I reach over to my bedside table and turn my phone on, the logo popping up brightly on the screen causing me to squint my eyes at the sudden white light.

Message from Toga Tiger (3)
Missed call from Dabi Wasabi
One voicemail from Dabi Wasabi

I open the messages.

Meeting tonight|
Hello??|
Where are you?|

6:11 am

|Sorry something came up
|What did i miss?

I sigh and exit the messages app before going to the phone app.
I click on the voicemail and it plays.

"Hey we're supposed to be having a meeting but now i realise your phone is off. Maybe you're busy but i don't know. Just get back to me as soon as possible, okay?"

I sigh and click on his contact. It rings a few times to the point i don't think he'll pick up but he does.
"Hey" he says into the phone.
"Hey, sorry i missed the meeting"
"Why did you? Shigaraki is mad."
I hum before answering "i guessed he would be... i missed it because my dad die-" i get cut off.
"Man that sucks" his voice held no empathy.
"I know right?" i force a laugh even though it hurts.
"Well, as long as you come to the next one right?"
"Yeah, yeah of course"
"Okay well, bye"
"b-" the hang up tone sounds before i could even finish.

The shutter sounds as i turn off my phone temporarily, throwing it onto the end of my bed.
It buzzes a few times and i groan, pushing myself up and checking.

Dabi Wasabi

I can always help relieve some tension|
If you want|
It's up to you though|

I chew on my lip considering the option and feel gross after making the decision.

|You still staying in the inn?

👍|

I shut my eyes and cringe but.. what else am i going to do. It's my best option at the moment.

I slide out from my bed and grab my school bag, Shoving my uniform in there.
I had already decided i was going to school today. I cant stay in here. I will go crazy.

I decide to throw on some sweatpants and a hoodie. I'm not bothered with what i look like right now.

*****

Throwing the classroom door open, i walk in. I'm pretty sure I look a mess considering i got approximately 1 second of sleep last night and haven't showered. Also, my necks is littered with hickeys which aren't subtle at all.
Everyone's eyes me, still confused about what had happened yesterday but i ignore them. They probably also think i'm a whore now, too. I take my seat and pull out my phone, Toga having messaged me again.

I heard from Dabi|
I hope you can make the next meeting bestie|

Does she just not care? I shut off my phone and place it down harder than intended on the desk.
"Someone's in a bad mood... and had a good time last night apparently" Bakugo raises his brows at me in a provoking way, finger tracing one of the hickeys on the back of my neck.
"..sorry" i whisper and lay my head down on the desk, jolting away from his touch.

Everything's a blur and suddenly i'm in the girls changing rooms getting dressed into my hero suit. I'm alone in the corner, keeping to myself.

Before i know it, we're out on the battles grounds, getting paired up to fight another pair.
"Hey, L/N you're with me"
I sluggishly turn to face Shoto as he looks at me, worry plastered on his face.
"okay, hello" i mumble and wait for further instructions from All Might.

Turns out, we're up first against Bakugo and Kirishima.
"Shouldn't be too hard, right?" I yawn.

I think the sleep is catching up to me.

The fight begins and i dodge each one of Bakugo's hits but my reflexes aren't up to scratch so i'm barely avoiding him. I aerial cartwheel out of the way but i almost fuck up the landing.
"Fuck" i hiss before running at Bakugo. He gets prepared to see me behind him but i switch it up.
I use my quirk and teleport directly above him but he manages to realise and runs out of the way, causing me to fall onto the floor. I force myself up, making eye contact with Bakugo.

"What the fuck is going on with you?" He snarls, his head tilted upwards as his eyes look down at me.
I just motion him over with my hand, telling him to continue fighting.

I blink slowly, my eyes staying shut for a bit too long on accident. When i open them, i can't see Shoto, Kiri or Bakugo because of the dirt dust floating through the air. Probably because we've disturbed the ground.

I feel myself become weak and my head feeling light and dizzy.
"I've gotta go eat something" i mumble and step out of the arena, taking wobbly steps towards the main building.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?! THAT MEANS YOU'VE SURRENDERED YOU KNOW?! YOU'VE LOST" Bakugo barks behind me but i keep walking.

I hear running footsteps behind me and the familiar scent of mint-vanilla mixed in with Boss deodorant wraps around me as Todoroki catches up to me.

"You really don't look good"
"I think imma faint" i groan and his arm instantly wraps around my waist and he supports me.
"Okay, let's get you a drink"
I nod weakly and grips onto him.

He guides me to the waiting area and sits me down on a chair, kneeling down in front of me.
"do you know why you're feeling like this?" his gentle voice calms me.
"I haven't eaten or slept"
"WHY NOT?!"

My ears ring from his loud voice and I shut my eyes. Momo hands me a sandwich and a bottle of water which i consume slowly, thinking deeply.

"I... I haven't eaten because" i start but it fades off into a whisper as it finally hits me. The suffocating sadness. The grief. The anger. The frustration. The denial.

"are you ok?" Todoroki says quietly.

I look up from my gaze at the floor. Tears begin to build at my waterline as i think of my dad. I can't think of good memories right now, only the fact that he's not here anymore.

"My.. my dad he's-" i slap a hand over my mouth because i want to muffle the loud sobs that are all of a sudden escaping without my control "he's de- ad" i croak out and bury my face in my hands as i fold over.

I try to hold everything in but i can't anymore. "He's- not here- anymore. He's gone- he's gone and i can't-" I take huge gasps in between crying out. It's like i can't breath. "I'm never going to see him again" My cries are raspy and full of pain. Arms wrap around me and hold me tightly, squeezing and rocking me back and forth.

I can feel everyone in my classes eyes on me. I'm so humiliated but i just can't stop. Is this who i am now?
I didn't feel anything 2 months ago and now i'm crying like a stupid little baby.
I curse myself for letting me become so weak.

Dad's never coming back.

I pull my hands away from my face and return Todoroki's hug, breathing heavily and trying to calm myself down. He doesn't even let me go for a moment.
I glance up for a moment, meeting eyes with Bakugo who had a stunned look on his face. I shut my eyes again, clinging onto Todoroki.
"I'm sorry" i breathe out.

"Why are you apologising?" he asks, confusion soaking his words.
"For crying like a baby. I'm weak"
Todoroki pulls away and shakes his head. He opens his mouth to speak but he's interrupted.

"HEY" I snap my eyes open again, looking up at the voice "Don't call yourself weak. Fucking idiot."
Bakugo glares at me but he's being sincere.
I nod slightly and sniffle, wiping my eyes.