C R I M I N A L | K. Bakugo x Reader

Chapter 38

So i left.

I left the League of Villains. I know they're going to come and kill me but it's not like I wasn't going to kill myself anyway.
I'm also going to leave UA. It wouldn't be right for me to stay there after everything i've ever done. My life is a massive sin. I don't mind if i die, i barely deserve this life that had been so wonderfully handed to me. It started off beautiful but then it got ruined. And it was only my fault.

Dear Bakugo Katsuki,

I glance up at the TV shop, the screens playing in the window. I notice the news of both me and Bakugo on the screen along with the League of Villains.

"I can't believe they would just set them free for no reason" a woman exclaims to a man stood beside her.

*Breaking: The two kidnapped UA students return home mostly unscathed - Is the LoV behind the attack?*

Upon the screen were pictures of the two of us. A selfie we had taken together and pictures from our school ID.

As i'm writing to you, i'm sat in front of a Television shop, looking at the reports on us. It's weird seeing our faces on screen, don't you think?
When you read this, i'm almost certain i'll be long gone. Whether that be one way or another you may never know but luckily for you, you'll never see me again. It's what you deserve after what i did to you, you deserve peace.

I tap my pen against my knee which is crossed over the other as i sit on the bench in front of the shop. I don't know how i'm going to say what i want to.

As you know, i've tried multiple times to get through to you but it appears you've blocked my number. I heard your injuries have been treated and you are well. I'm pleased.

I groan, my words not sounding sincere enough.

I wish i could tell you about me but i'm running out of time. Though i set out to hurt you, i fear i may never see you again.

I understand that i have hurt you deeply, and my sorry's could never make up for the pain i've dealt you. I know there's nothing i can do for you to ever gain my trust or forgive me again, and i'm also lead to believe you wish no contact with me. It's best if we part ways, for both our parts.

I've made the decision to drop out of UA since i believe it is wrong for me to be there. I've acknowledged my past and know that even if i had changed, i would remain unworthy in such a world.
I heard they're adding dorms which is pretty cool. Getting to live with your classmates. I bet you'll really love it.

Tears form at the corners of my eyes as i write but i blink them away and focus on my words.

Even though i wish to, I can't tell you how i feel about you. That would be a waste of time and cause you nothing but more pain. But what i will tell you, is thank you.
Thank you for showing me how the world can be. After being in such a dark place for a long time, you guided me to the light and showed me how life can actually be.

Truth is, i didn't feel much before i met you... I was evil back then. But, when i met you, i slowly changed into a different person. I now experience sadness, happiness, the laughter, the tears. I can feel the warm sun on my back, I even got used to human touch. For this, i'm forever grateful as i've learnt what it is to be human.

Being a human is to make mistakes. However, mine is far more than a mistake and i don't intend for you to forgive me. I don't even want your forgiveness. I wish for you to save it for someone who's worth it, that isn't dishonest. I am not that person.

I sniffle slightly as my pen scribbles away.

I've never missed someone before, at least not how i miss you. I really appreciate the time we spent together, learning and growing into adults together, laughing together and so on. I even learnt how to dance because of you!

Maybe in an alternate universe, we're still 'Swaying' around the Camp and not caring as our classmates judge us. Maybe we're still laughing and smiling and maybe we're meant to be.
Maybe in another life, I won't be a monster, and you won't fall in love with me.

Anyway, enough of maybes and 'what if's'. This is this and here is now.
Our story ends here.

And though it may not be a happy ending, you have much more to come. And i'm so excited for you.

Wishing you all the best.

Goodbye,

F/N L/N

I sign the end of the paper, folding it up twice before sliding it into my back pocket and let out a heavy sigh. Maybe it was of relief? Maybe it was the reaction to the end that draws near. But whatever it was, it came from a criminals mouth.