C R I M I N A L | K. Bakugo x Reader

Chapter 37

I stare emotionlessly at Bakugo's sad eyes, tears flowing down his cheeks. The look of hurt and betrayal crosses his face as he pleads me with his eyes that it isn't true. That it isn't true i'm one of them.
Truth is, even though it's not showing, it hurts so bad to see him like this. It feels like my heart has been torn out of his chest. In reality, i have no right to feel like this. I'm the one who hurt him. No one else.

I cringe as Dabi runs his hands across my stomach. He forces me to sit on his lap, his head resting on my shoulder as we watch the scene in front of us play out.

"Bakugo, we'll ask you again, would you like to join the League Of Villains?" Shiggy leans down, glaring into his eyes.
Bakugo spits at him, it landing in the crusty mans eye "Never. I would never join your disgusting League."
"I see how it is" Shiggy sighs and pats the boys head.

He trembles in fear and tugs at the chains around his arms, hands, legs and ankles. I'm fighting every urge within me to not unchain him right now.

"How should we start the torture, Lola?" he grins and looks over at me. Bakugo lets out heartbreaking whimpers as he watches me.
"Y/N.." Dabi digs his fingers into my skin and I wince.
"Don't fucking ask me" i grit my teeth "and Touya please get off me"
"or what?" he snarled in my ear.

I use my quirk to crush his hand slightly, causing it to cramp up. He sucks in through his teeth and lets go of my frame.
I stand up and fix my hair, trying not to look at Bakugo. I clear my throat.
"I'm going to take a breather" i inhale and leave the room, stepping outside into the summer nights air.

What do i really want? If I stay with the villains it'll be much easier but i can't bare it much longer. I'm different now. Besides, knowing Bakugo he'd always say no to joining so i'll have to leave him forever. I mean, in all seriousness, he probably doesn't want me in his life anymore.
If i choose to leave here, they're going to hunt me down. I'll put the people around me in danger... it doesn't really seem worth it. Anyway, i could never be a true and honest hero with my past. I don't know what i'm thinking.

So what do i do?

I hear a loud scream from inside and jolt out of my thoughts. I run in, looking straight at Bakugo who's writhing in pain and Toga runs her knife along his skin.
I feel my eyes water at his suffering but i push it back. He just needs to hold out. I think i have a plan.

*****

5am

I sneak into the room, peering for the boy as i enter. His head is hung low and appears to have given up on escaping. I tiptoe over towards him and his head snaps up to look at me. His eye twitches "get away from me"
"Kats-"
"GET AWAY FROM ME" he lunges forwards but obviously doesn't get very far due to the restraints.
"FUCKING SHUT UP WILL YOU?" i yell back at him and crouch down on the floor. His chest rises and falls heavily as he looks at me with disgust.

I begin unbuckling his ankles as tears fill my eyes.
"What are you doing?" he asks confused and quiet.
"I'm fucking setting you free, what else?" i lift up my wrist to wipe my eye but go back to the restraints.
"Why?"
I glance up at him momentarily, noticing his face was bloodied and bruised.
"Because it's the least i can do..."
He scoffs and turns away "I fucking hate you"

A dagger pierces my heart but i throw the feeling aside. I deserve it. I deserve everything he wants to give me.

I move onto his wrists and do so in silence. Once i'm done, he shakes them off and stands up.
"Fuck you." he growls and looks down at me.
I just take it, i could never fight back when this is perfectly reasonable.
"FUCK YOU FOR BETRAYING ME, FOR BETRAYING EVERYONE"

I flinch at his yells as he throws his hands around.

"FUCK YOU" as he screams, tears run down his face and spit flies out of his mouth "AND FUCK YOU FOR HURTING ME LIKE THIS"

I can't help my own tears from falling.

"HOW DARE YOU CRY?! WHEN YOURE THE ONE WHO FUCKING DID THIS. HOW DARE YOU. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU?!"

"I'm sorry"

"YOURE SORRY?!" he cries out and he grabs my shoulders, shaking me violently "YOURE SORRY?!"

I stay silent, absorbing every scream that leaves his mouth.

"I HATE YOU" he reminds me "BUT EVEN THOUGH I FUCKING HATE YOU, WHEN I LOOK AT YOU I FEEL OTHERWISE AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT"

I feel my lip quiver and hang my head low.

"FUCK Y/N WHY YOU?!"

"I'm sorry" i repeat, barely above a whisper.

His shouts halt and instead the sound filling my ears is a loud, distressed sob. He collapses into me and i manage to hold his weight as he continues crying heavily, gasping for air. I sink down, guiding us both to the ground.

"I can't look at you." He says in between harsh inhales, his head rested on my shoulder "but all i want is you... why?!"

He finally locks eyes with me, begging for some sort of answer.

"Because... somehow you wish... it could all be taken back and this never happened.. and that nothing changed" i mumble guiltily.
He lets out a shaky breath and leans back into me, clinging onto my clothing.
"Then please tell me it's a lie, a dream, or something." His sobs begin to get quieter.
"It's not. It's all real" my voice cracks as i admit it, this mission hurting at lot more than i intended it to "but what else is real is the time we spent together"

Suddenly i feel an intense pressure where he pushes me away at full force, standing up and letting a shadow to cover his eyes.
"Fuck you. How can you say that?"

"I'm just stating the truth"

He breathes heavily as he waits for the next thing but it never comes. He turns to leave and i witness as he does so.

When he stops at the door, however, he turns to face me again.
"What will they do to you?"
"They'll kill me"

He just snickers and shakes his head "good."