C R I M I N A L | K. Bakugo x Reader

Chapter 43

It's 3:21am and i still can't sleep. It's been like this everyday since the fire. My mind just won't rest. I get barely any sleep every night and i'm so tired. My head is just full of worries and when i really think about it, they only settle when i'm around Bakugo. As much as i hate to admit it, i want him to forgive me and i want everything to go back to the way it was. I think i'm in love with him and i can't get rid of this feeling.

My phone buzzes.

Message from Phat Cock (2)

My heart flutters as i stare down at the screen before opening the message. Why is he awake right now?

Awake?|
Asleep?|

I snort as i think of a reply

|asleep

The speech bubble pops up, i just know he rolled his eyes to the message.

Ha. Ha. You're hilarious.|

|what do you want porcupine? 🙄

I can't sleep|

|neither. what am i meant to do
about it?

The bubble pops up and types for a while and then disappears. I furrow my brows and double text.

|well???
|what?

The bubble pops up again this time a message coming through.

Never mind|
Don't worry about it|
I'm just tired goodnight|

I squint my eyes in confusion. This motherfucker.

I slide out of bed and fumble for the door handle in the dark. I creep down the hallway, attempting to not wake his parents up. When i reach his door i knock as quietly as possible.

A sleepy Bakugo open the door and he looks down at me. "What?"
His caramel scent wafts around me and i feel my face heat up.
"You texted me because you wanted to be soothed like a fucking baby again didn't you?"
"I'm not a baby. Besides, I thought you were asleep" he smirks and invites me into his room.
"Far from" i groan and jump into his cozy bed. I hear the door shut and then small runs. My eyes widen as he dives on mermaid style before crushing me underneath him.
I wriggle and laugh under my breath "Katsuki get off"
"Your comfy, might just have to keep you trapped" his low voice rumbling through the air. He spreads out like a starfish, flattening me down.

He pretends to snore and I roll my eyes.
"You look very punchable right now" I say sweetly and he lifts his head, crimson eyes digging into my e/c ones. His hairs messy and scruffed up. I blush heavily but hope the darkness hides it.
"You've got bed head" i grin and use my strength to roll him off of me.
"So do you" He scoffs and pulls the covers over himself, also wrapping me in them.

He stares at me with those eyes for a second and then all of a sudden pulls me in tightly, it almost felt protective. My head is now rested on his chest near his shoulder.
I freeze up against him.
"Bakugo-"
"You're here to sooth me right?" he mumbles and tightens his hold. I find my hand snaking over him as he tangles his legs in mine. The hand that's placed on my back starts rubbing gently. I actually loved this feeling but it's not right.

I lifted my head and make eye contact with him. I go to speak but he's giving me a look i can't describe.
For a split second, his eyes flickered down to my lips but he was quick to look back up at my eyes. "what?"
I become speechless, my heart firing beats wildly. I want to tell him how I feel but i shouldn't.
"I-" I start but catch my self before i say it.

It hurts me that i can't say it and it hurts me that we can't have this.

But we could. He wants it as much as you.

But we couldn't.

I feel my eyes water and he notices this, sitting us up. He cups my face between both of his hands and he looks deeply, lovingly into my eyes.
"What's up?"
I can't stop myself any longer.
"I lied. I do love you, Bakugo but i can't. It wouldn't be right. I want to protect you and to do that, i can't hurt you any more than i have"
"I don't need protecting, you idiot" he runs a hand over my head, over the top of my hair before he grabs onto my thighs, pulling me into his lap so that my legs are wrapped around him.

He hugs me tightly and buries his face into the crook of my neck "I wanted to hear that so badly"
I shake my head and pull away "I shouldn't have said it. I'm sorry. That was inappropriate of me"

His hand finds the back of my neck "Stop being so fucking stubborn. Why can't you just tell me without feeling guilty?"
I blush when i realise our noses are just about touching, our skin brushing together. I feel a single tear roll down my cheek slowly and he watches as it does so.
"Because I know i shouldn't love you"
"Fucking shut up." He hisses leaning more into me, squeezing the back of my neck.
Automatically, I wrap my arms around his neck, bringing him in closer. Both our breaths hitch at the same time, eyes half lidded as we still stare into each other's.
I lean in, pressing my lips softly against his and he reciprocates, pushing himself against me, turning the soft kiss into a longing one. We move apart but rest our foreheads against each other.
For some reason, we're both crying now. Maybe because it's something we've both wanted for so long now. Maybe it's because he still hated me and i hated myself for admitting how i felt. Maybe it was happiness, even.

"Please say it again" He whispers, his hot breath hitting my lips as he speaks. His arms around me tighten as if i could disappear at any moment.
"I love you, Katsuki"
I lets out a shaky sigh "I love you too, Y/N"

We lean in again, finally able to show each other what we've been wanting to. My hands reach into his hair as his run down my back. His touch is surprisingly gentle when you take his character into consideration. You've expect him to be more violent or heavy with his movements but he's quite the opposite.

Finally, we lay down to sleep, allowing ourselves to cuddle sweetly.