Two Pieces (Demi Lovato and Jesse Williams)

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Demi's POV

Today is Jesse's Birthday and it also happens to be Bella's first day of school. I can't believe it's already been a year since I brought her to high school for the first time and now she's a sophomore. I woke up pretty early this morning though, so I could wish Jesse a happy birthday. My alarm went off before the sun even came up and I grabbed Layla and brought her to her own room for the next hour or so before going back to our room. I close and lock the door just in case before crawling back into the bed and over to Jesse who is still fast asleep.

"Happy Birthday baby." I whisper as I kiss down his jaw. I feel him flinch slightly, but he never wakes up, so I move to straddling him as I place a hand on either side of his face as I kiss his lips. It didn't take long for him to return the kiss and I smirk against his lips as he runs his hands up my thighs.

"Good morning to me." He mumbles out in his ruff morning voice.

"It is a good morning birthday boy." I say as I pull away enough to look him in the eyes. "You're getting old." I then say and he chuckles as he rolls his eyes.

"That makes me feel just great." He says and I giggle as I bend down to catch his lips in mine again.

"I got cleared to return to normal activities the other day." I mumble and I feel him smirk as he runs his hands under my shorts as he squeezes my ass. He then flips us over so he's on top and I let out a quiet moan as he starts kissing down my neck as I run my hand own his back. As he goes to lift up my top, I all the sudden get really nervous and I grab his hands.

"What's wrong?" He asks looking up at me concerned and I shake my head as tears start to threaten to fall.

"I um.. nothing." I mumble as I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

"It's not nothing. Come on baby, talk to me." He says sitting up and I shake my head feeling stupid for being so upset that I can't even have sex with my boyfriend. Or fiancé. I don't even know what we are anymore. "If you're not comfortable, then that's fine. Don't force yourself love." He then says as he runs his fingers through my hair.

"I don't look the same as before. I have a lot of stretch marks and fat still." I mumble and I hear him chuckle so I snap my eyes open and glare at him.

"Baby, I don't care about that. You're so beautiful to me no matter what. I'm even more in love with you now because this body brought our daughter into this world." He says caressing my cheek just as a tear falls, but he quickly catches it and wipes it away.

"You haven't even seen me yet. You've only seen me in baggy clothes." I pout and he smiles before bending down to kiss me softly.

"Then show me. I bet I'll just adore you even more." He whispers as he kisses my cheek then my jaw and I sigh heavily really wishing I can just get past this mental block, but I can't.

"No. I'm sorry." I say sitting up and moving him slightly so I can get out of the bed. I walk to the bathroom and I close and lock the door before sitting at the edge of the tub and putting my head in my hands. So much for wanting to have sex with him for his birthday this morning. I feel so ashamed of myself and I hate this feeling. I went through this after I had Bella also and I was also going through post partum depression. I was a mess after Bella was born and I really hoped that didn't happen to me now, but I'm feeling some of the same emotions again which scares me.

"Open the door love." I hear Jesse's voice as he knocks on the door and I sniffle as I start wiping my tears. "You're going to have to come out eventually baby. I have to get ready for work soon." He then says after a couple minutes and I sigh shakily as I look at myself in the mirror and I see my flushed cheeks and red eyes. "Please don't cry baby. It's okay if you're uncomfortable. I just want you to know that you're still so gorgeous." I hear him say after another minute or so. I take one last deep breath as I stand up and I turn the sink on so I can wash my face and brush my teeth. Once I'm done, I open the door and see Jesse standing right outside it with a small smile on his face.