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Chapter 6-pain

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TWs: eating struggles, description of meal

Clay's POV

I walked out of the room as quickly as possible the moment I felt my face start to go red. I probably made George uncomfortable, but I literally had to get out. My dumbass brain had started filling with thoughts of the fan art I had seen earlier, and for a split second I was tempted to recreate it. The brown eyes staring into mine as he told me I was 'attractive' moved something in my brain, starting to make something happen. It was as if he had taken my brain and shaken it, completely changing the way I see him.

He made me start to fall in love.

But is it really the start if it's been happening all along? I'd known, deep down, that my feelings towards George had changed over the past few months. I just hadn't admitted it to myself, trying determinedly to stick to being straight. I think this is because it's the one thing I had always been sure of, my sexual orientation. It'd always only been feelings towards females, so as soon as my belly fluttered at the thought of George I subconsciously pushed it as far away as I physically could. This, however, clearly wasn't far enough, because the beautiful brunette quickly became the most important person in my life. 

God, I needed to stay busy if I didn't want to fall into another rabbit hole.

I decided to go and talk to Karl and Sapnap. The greeting I gave them wasn't exactly amazing, so showing my guilt by being chatty was probably a good idea. I stopped outside Karls open door, poking my head around to see an empty room.

Weird.

They must be catching up already. I easily made my way to Sapnap's room, seeing as it was literally right next to it- but the door was closed. So naturally I knocked and opened it as I did, more just giving them a warning that I was entering rather than requesting an actual welcome.('If they're both together there can't be anything weird going on, right?' Oh how naive I was.) What I didn't expect to see was them both on the bed, Nick clambering off of Karl who's face was quickly turning a BRIGHT red. I felt my jaw drop.

"WHAT!?!?!" I yelled, and they both jumped, looking terrified. I then burst out laughing, a long wheeze escaping my lips and my body doubling over. They were both staring at me, still looking way too scared about me finding them making out.

"You...you guys....*wheeze*...oh my god...I knew it...." I struggled to speak between uncontrollable laughter.

 I had certainly suspected the two liking each other; the way Nick didn't even hesitate to choose Karl as the person he wanted to invite there, the way they spoke to each other, the way they blushed at certain comments. I didn't quite expect to walk in on a make out session though.

"You what??? How would you know?" Sapnap sounded so confused, his face still holding the passing resemblance to a tomato. 

"It's a bit obvious Pandas.."  I paused to go into another short fit of giggles, "..I mean you guys aren't very good at hiding it." Neither of them really knew what to say to this- they clearly thought they had been discreet about their emotions. I just laughed until I could calm down again, then started walking out and closing the door behind me. "I'll leave you two to...well. I'll leave you two alone." I chuckled again as I shut the door all the way, and then got away from it as quickly as I could. I didn't wanna hear anything that I would regret.

Well, that was an experience. I guess I'm on my phone for the next couple of hours.

At least, this was my original thought. But then I remembered that in July, a few days after we booked the flights, George had told me how much he hated plane food. He never ate it, because 'furst of orll it's groess and secohnd of orll he doesn't knoe whehr it's bin'. So after considering this, I realised that he would most likely be starving when he woke up, and I didn't want him to have to wait to be able to have some food.