OH MY GOD OVER 100 VIEWS THANK YOU SO SO MUCH
lemme go all emotional
I've always loved writing; it's a way to escape this world and make thousands of others, it's a way to create friends and family that you lack but wish you had. Writing for myself is something I've always loved, but as soon as it comes to other people I worry. The fact that I started this like, idk, 2 weeks ago or less and over 100 views??? Like WHAT???
BELOW I TALK ABT VERY SENSITIVE SUBJECTS (self harm, eating disorder, throwing up, toxic family)
I have been self harming for about a year now. It's scary, and I hate it, but it's obssessive. I honestly can't stop (no matter who tries asking me to). I don't talk to my parents because they are, frankly, shit. Its never physical, or even too serious mental, it's just toxic. No ones ever actually nice, no one listens or takes me seriously, they think every tear is because of hormones and every panic attack is for attention. They don't make me feel like they care.
Today I ate, and then felt guilty. So, so guilty. And I went in the bathroom and forced myself to throw up (using my hand). It was terrifying. I was home alone with no one to help, and when i tried to stop i felt guilty again. I hate the way i look, i have for a while, but i didnt think i would do something like this. I looked into it and its something called bulimia, I'm trying to get help.
I just wanted to say that if there's long gaps between chapters, or if one of them's unaturally short, please dont think its weird or lose interest, just when im struggling too much i dont write because it doesnt come out as good.
I love you so much, you are worth the world and more, you are beautiful, you are perfect. Drink water. Eat food. Don't be anything like me, because I'm not perfect. I'm too far in, ive give up on being perfect again. But thats because i suck. Youre amazing, powerful, and beautiful, you just gotta give yourself the push you need to feel the best you can. Who gives a shit what everyone else thinks?? As long as you are happy being you, there's nothing to worry about.
YOU ARE READING
More or less than friends
FanfictionA dnf story- Clay has a past, and George does too. Both want to forget it. NOT MY FANART I don't really ship them irl, they're comfortable with this stuff and if they ever say they aren't I will delete this. Please don't force the couple on them...
