Medicine

"Silver Moon"

Helping myself up
I could use a hand
Stumbling and steady
Before I fall again
I used to cry myself to sleep
Excuse me for waking you up
I had a bad dream
I will never believe in anything you say
False hope was meant to humiliate
I will trust the words that come from me
So go
Your face should not be shown
Indecipherable expressions played a part in my depression
You've been undergoing sorrows
I won't feel bad for you until tomorrow
Rising up without anyone to interrupt
Trouble will go away soon
I want to be able to touch the silver moon
A moment of comfort and inspiration
Years of maintaining unknown patience
How am I the only one wanting to fix it?
I'm just playing hide and seek with everyone else's happiness
In a blindfolded world
I can see
To know how to love
I'll have to start with me
Ignore how I've been
I need a little push
And a reason to agree
I was illustrious temporarily
I'm not who I was or what you think
You don't know enough to tell me how I'm feeling
Endeavoring to pry my hold
With all my might
I will not let go
I have less uplifting
And too much down spiral
Screaming until my throat is sore
Breathing heavily
Until my heart speeds up and eventually gets torn
I took notes on what I've gathered
When the clouds get darker
The sun will be brighter
And I will be better by the hour
I'm straying far from where you had me at
Sometimes I miss myself from the past
I can't afford to contradict anyone's trust
You've got one more day
To finally learn the meaning of "not okay"
I'm done being your target board
Throwing darts that stick
And then removed on your own accord
I will depart in peace
Because that's who I am
I'll be careful not to slam the door