It's always been you (Shelby and Toni story)

Part 24 (part 2)

WARNING: this chapter can get homophobic, and it also talks about Becca committing suicide, so this chapter might be upsetting for some ppl

Shelby pov

"Wow Shelby that's really fucked up, that's your own fucking father" Toni said clenching her fist while shaking her head

"It's not right" she said

"You think my daddy is the horrible person? When I'm done you probably won't even be able to look at me the same" I said

Becca being calling and texting all day

Becca: you ok

Becca: PLEASE call me back

Becca: why aren't you answering

Me: Stop texting me stop calling me just stop!

I was in my plucking my eyebrows, after I was done I stared at myself in the mirror when I text appeared on my phone

I picked it up to see Becca texted

Becca: hey I'm here at your house

Oh no what is she doing here, my dads gonna see here

I hurried outside where she stood on my porch

"I told you to stop contacting me what is my parents saw you" I said looking back to make sure they weren't here

"I just wanna explain" she said

I was already so frustrated, I didn't want to here it

"Why why why why did you tell your parent" I said looking anywhere but at her

"I didn't mean to, your dad call them first and I- I thought maybe you told them already" she said

I shook my head lightly before dropping it

"All I said was we was just kidding around" she said causing me to look at her

"Or you wanted this, you wanted my life to be as fucked up as yours is" I said completely facing her

I knew I was just talking and I knew that's not what she wanted, but I wanted to convince myself that's what she wanted

"Well I don't know what you mean" she said

"All I ever been is nice to you, even when you lost it and everyone turned on you" I said walking away

"I know I know, you've been my best friend" she said causing me to turn back around

"I'm not your friend" I said pointing my finger at her before dropping it

"Okay I feel sorry for you, I-I pity you" I said having a hard time getting the words out because none of it was true

"You know the shit you pulled with brain, you know you probably came on to him, probably forced him to be with you" I said and I know that was a horrible thing to say after what happen but I had to believe it

"You know that's not true" she said looking hurt... "and I was 13" she finished

"When you told me I was disgusted, and I know everyone else will be too" I said cruelly

"Shelby" she said with hurt in her voice

"Like I know you've been sick mentally" I said I forced my self to say more horrible words "and that's why" I said before she cut me off