It's always been you (Shelby and Toni story)

Part 44

Shelby pov

After taking a shower and putting on my clothes I made my way to Toni's living room when I heard her talking to someone

"I don't know, she just cried herself to sleep as I held her" I heard Toni say

She paused for a couple of seconds before saying

"Maybe, all I know is she was real upset, and she came here at night time"

At that I walked in and saw her on the phone when she saw me she said "hey Marty I'll call you back... yeah... okay... love you too" before hanging up

"Marty said hey, and she hopes you feel better" she said looking at me

I nodded "she's sweet" I responded

Toni nodded her face softening

"Are you okay?" She asked looking with concern written all on her face

I was thinking about lying because I didn't really want to worry her, i didn't want to be a burden on her because maybe then she will realize that my family drama ain't worth being with me, I just want to tell her everything was okay and hide my emotions, and just make up some dumb accuse about why I came here in the middle of the night and cried myself to sleep while she held me, but I didn't do that

I shook my head no and I immediately saw her face soften more

"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked

I thought about it, because I really didn't want to talk about it, I feel like I'm about to throw up from just thinking about it, but I know that I have to so I nodded

"Come sit" she said patting the seat next to her

I walked over and sat down

It was awkwardly silence for a few seconds, before Toni broke it

"So... what happen last night?" She finally asked

"I finally told my daddy about us" I spoke lowly

"Oh... and how did that go? She asked

"Well I came here late at night and cried myself to sleep, so apparently not well" I said with a chuckle

Toni cleared her throat and dropped her head, her cheeks turned red from embarrassment

"You're right, that was a stupid question" she spoke lowly

"No, I didn't mean it like that... it was bad Toni, you should of seen the way he looked at me, I seen the disgust and disappointment in his eyes, he made me feel disappointed in myself" I spoke honest

"For what it's worth, I'm proud of you babe" she spoke

I nodded, I know she was, and it helped that she was, and again it still made me feel bad every time I visualize my daddy's face

"I know baby" I responded

"Did he um- did he kick you out?" She asked

I shook my head

"I just left" I responded

"Oh, that's good right? That means he wasn't planning on kicking you out" she said

I shrugged

"Honestly I don't know what would happen if I go back home, I don't know if my clothes will be thrown out on the lawn, I don't know if my daddy would tell me get out and don't take anything because he bought it all, I don't know if I go home and he already got my clothes packed ready to send me off" I spoke

"Shelby if he kicked you out you could just stay here, if he kicked you out and won't let you take anything with you what's mine is yours, and I won't let him send you away no matter what I have to do to keep that from happening, I'll do it" she spoke

"Toni don't say that, you can't keep him from sending me away, I'm only 17 I'm not 18 yet, so he can do whatever he wants with me" I spoke tears burning my eyes

"Shelbs" she said hugging me

"I would try my best not to let him send you away, you can't leave me" she spoke hugging me tighter

"I don't want to leave you, and no matter what happens I will always find my way back to you" I responded

Toni nodded

"I love you" she said lowly

"I love you too baby" I said kissing her on the lip then on the forehead

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I was at Fatin's house as she held me while I cried until I felt like I couldn't cry anymore

"I'm sorry to cry on you like that, I've just been holding it in because I didn't want to cry in front of Toni" I spoke

"You don't have to apologize, and Toni won't look at you any different because you cry, she loves you so much" she said

"I know, I just didn't want to cry in front of her because I know her, and I know she would probably find a way blame herself even though it's 100% not her fault" I responded

Fatin nodded

"I'm scared Fatin, what if I lose them all, I won't even get a chance to watch Mel and Spence grow up" I spoke

She rubbed my back

"What about your mom?" She asked

"She supports me, she said it took her some time to actually accept it but she just want me to be happy" I said

"Well that's good, you have her, she won't let your dad kick you or keep you away from your siblings, or send you off" she said

"Maybe you're right about two things, but that house is in his name" I responded

"Well don't worry about that, you always got a home where ever I'm at, I don't care if I move to California, just know you always have a spot" she says

"Thank you Fatin, you're a amazing friend, I'm so happy to have you... I'm so happy to have all of you" I spoke honestly

"Yeah yeah kid, I love you" she said squeezing me tighter

"I love you too" I responded