My life

Still fat :/

Okay this is kinda random but I bought these press on nails and I CANT wait for them to come like just look at them! They're stunning 😩😩🤩😍 But it's from Canada so it's gonna take 2 weeks or so to come and isjxjakjsjja can't wait :)

Anyways... Soring break ended and the first week back to school just went by. It's okay. I still pay little to no attention in class tho 🤡 oops... 😅😅😅

It's because I have such a bad sleeping schedule! Well it's like I don't mean to stay up soo late it's like an accident that happens every night lmao ☠️

My boyfriend usually stays up with me it's like we both do whatever in the day time like he has school and stuff so I let him do that and he's done by evening then he does whatever he wants for a bit and by like 23:00-03:00 then that's when we hang out for a bit and go to sleep at the same time but recently like the last week he's been trying to sleep early so he's sleeping at like 00:00-01:00 and I still stay up until like 4 😭 then I have to wake up for school at 8 so that's 4 hours of sleep so I always fall asleep in class because I'm tired and it's boring and I do t want to do it lol.

There's this method where you don't eat past 5 then force yourself to sleep early like 11-12 and wake up early like 8-9 and with that it just magically fixes your sleeping schedule??? It's a thing I swear lol look it up!

Oh yeah now to the important stuff.

Sooo my fat ass gained 15 pounds the lowest I've been is 120 that was in like January 🥲 then I gained 15 pounds the next month and now I'm 136.5 pounds 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

And I measured my chest because I was sewing a dress for myself and fucking I gained 3 inches around my chest 🤡🤡🐖🐖

Before it was like 35-36 inches and now it's fucking 39 inches and that hit me soo hard like fuck I gained 15 pounds •_•

Like I'm soo scared to measure my neck and waist and thighs. Because I know they went up a few inches too 🥲🥲🥲

I REALLY want to loose weight and be at LEAST 105 pounds by like mid May. Because I bought this necklace and it's really important to me like on a emotional level 🥺🥺

And I feel like I would be the HUGEST disappointment ever if I'm not skinny by then.

I also realized my posture is HORRIBLE lmao like I'm a shrimp 🦐 arched just like that 😭😭😭

I want to get a corset because I want to be a princess lol but also because I want the shape it'll give me and it also helps with posture!

Oh yeah! In a week in a half I'm coming to California! Okay and I really want to be at least 125 before I go tf can I loose 10 pounds in a week even tho it took a month to gain??? Fuck it yolo ima try to fast :))) or actually I'll start fasting tomorrow morning because my boyfriend told me this morning he made the BEST eggs ever. Usually the eggs he makes are bad and likes the ones I make but he said he made even better ones so he's gonna make me eggs tomorrow and I guess I'll just say I binged before coming so I'll eat some eggs and nothing else while I'm over because I'm already soo full :)

Okay that's all for now hopefully when I update I'll have some good news 🥺🥺🥲🥲🍓🍓