My life

Hmm?

Halooo update schedule who? Yeah forget about that lol. I'm literally doing whatever the fvck I want kamxisjx I can't-

I fasted for it was like 40 something hours and I lost a few pounds. Than I ate food and gained it all back. Fvck. I'm also trying to do some auditions for some companies but I... Let's just say I'm no where near okay. Im like a 3/10. Period.

Okay okay for real though, I literally ate a chocolate cookie mug cake for dinner. Along with a biscuit and some bacon. Then I went to the market and got mochi ice cream because I was craving it and ate almost all of it ajmxisjx. And I also found these cute af KakaoTalk seaweed sheet snacks so I got a bunch of them and ate some with rice for dinner too. In total I ate around 1,800 calories 😵🤢🤮 I can't. Can someone pls dm me and tell me how fat I am? Jk. But for real... 🤗

I do t think I'm gaining weight now. It's more like I'm maintaining it. I over eat dinner because I literally only eat food for the taste. Whenever I'm hungry, I'm too lazy to get food but when I do decide to get food, my stomach decides to go yeet! And I'm not hungry. But then I think about how a was hungry a bit ago so I end up somehow convincing myself to eat food and I always over eat. So... not good.

When I do eat, it's usually for dinner. I don't eat breakfast because I'm not really a morning person. I don't really have an appetite in the morning because it's too early to be thinking about outings other than question why I decided to got to sleep at 3am and get only 4 hours of sleep 🙃.
Then by lunch time I'm at school and I'm supposed to bring my own lunch but... Yeah I'm too busy to make myself food for lunch (kajxis we all know I'm looking at memes on sns) and I get sick of food really easily. Like for instance, I might be craving pasta. Like really craving it to the point where I would literally do 'anything' for it. Then I'll make myself some pasta and get sick after eating a bowl of it.
I usually get full after maybe the 3rd bite? Then I continue to eat for the taste until my stomach feels like it'll explode and I'll be over pasta for the next week or two.
The mochi ice cream I ate for dinner. I was over it after like the 2nd one but I continued to eat it because I was bored and wanted to procrastinate. Yeah, I don't have excuses 😑

Anyway, I'm having a weird vibe feeling rn. I'm over food rn but ik when I wake up tomorrow I'll probably be craving mochi cake. Earlier today I was craving moon cake and macarons 😋
The only foods I will NEVER be sick of or get over is bread. Like sweet breads, pastry breads, white/French toast bread or like bagel bread and macarons. There probably some other foods like some fruits or something like that, but ik I will never be over macarons ❤️❤️❤️ They're the key to my heart 🔑 ♥️

Getting back on topic, after I ate dinner it was 21:00 and I ran on my treadmill for a bit. Yeah. And I've been sitting on my living room floor for that past hour and a half trying to get myself to do some sort of ab workout before I go to wash up.

Procrastination~ >_<

Okay well I'm gonna try to do some sort of little work out then I'll be off to end my day. It's a little past midnight right now and I've been going to sleep at 3am for the past week. I really need to fix my sleeping schedule but... 🤪

Okay bai bai 👋

It's Friday now!!!! Only one more day. I can do this! We can do this! 💪💪💪