My life

A rant maybe?

Akajsjd  just for fun 🤗 this made me laugh a lot so I hope it makes you laugh too 😄🤣

It's the weekend... wowowow lots of things have happened in the last few days for me. When I say a lot I mean not a lot but "a lot" you know? Oajxiajx im sorry I don't make sense.

Okay so... y/n, you know about the big hit x source music new girl group audition right? Well I really want to try it out but thing is... My parents really don't want me to. They don't really support me with this. Not that their super against it but let's just say they don't believe I have what it takes and if I do make it one day they'd probably be fake and act as if they believed in my with all of their heart my whole journey. So theres a problem. Another problem is I'm still fat 🙃 fasting seems to be helping but yesterday was my cousins birthday and who goes to a birthday party and doesn't eat? So yeah I ate a lot somdisjd. Then when I got home I ate some more and exercised for a bit. But I definitely didn't exercise all of the things I ate off so.... Hoping that today is a better one.

School seems to be okay so that's well. It's not good but definitely better than last year. It's not like I have a lot of friends or anything I don't really have to worry about any drama or beef or any tea and stuff like that so I guess that's well. And I don't really like to surround myself with toxic people so that's well too.

I realized some time back that there is something I do that is probably good and bad. It's that I always have hope. I know that sound like that would be a really good thing but in some situations it wouldn't. Let's take a bad situation for example, if I were to be in a life or death situation and there was .0000000000001 percent of me surviving, I always have hope and put all of my believe in the point how many zeros one percent chance that I have to live. So right no my parents won't let me go to the audition, but I have soo much hope in the little percentage of me going that I kind of start to believe it's true. And right now that's giving me anxiety and making me really stressed and worried.

I'm around that age where I really need to get into a company because you know they all train for a few years, maybe move to another company then debut. Let's say they became a trainee at the age 16 and trained at their first company for maybe 2 and a half years and changed companies and trained for maybe 3 years and debuted. They rewind for a total of 6 years and debut at the fresh age of 21. Let's be honest, being a kpop star isn't something that you can do for a long time. Assuming that their career starts falling at maybe late 20 to mid 30s, their career only lasted maybe a decade to a decade and a half. Then maybe they become a star that everyone knows and acknowledges but their not trending on the charts or anything. Maybe that one hit song every once in a while but yk just kind here and there.

Not saying anything bad, just saying that k-neticens are very pick and kind of really sensitive about dumb things. For example like when Wanna One accidentally went live and talked about unfair treatment and pay. Some swearing and Daniel talking about taking a big doo doo in the morning. That's all normal talk and things to talk about with your members right? But was k-neticens fine with it? But of course not. Wanna One got a lot of hate for it while overseas fans had to calm k-wannables down. Not saying all k-neticens are like that but for the most part they are. Like when Eddie on nineteen got first place people were kind of 👀 about it even though their always talking about needing more foreigners in kpop. Okay that's enough for today.

I just finished dancing and befor I ran in the treadmill for an hour. I'm gonna go shower now before all my sweat dries up and I'll go to sleep. It's almost 1am akmxksjx I need my sleep. Okie I'm off now 👋

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