My life

Holding on...?

OKAY BUT MY DREAM CAME TRUE A FEW DAYS AGO I- 😵😵😵

While I was in California I finally got to visit Laduree! It's been my dream for a while and I can't believe it happened! Although this was a little shop... I really want to go to one in Paris! People say it's TOTALLY different! And I really want to experience going into one of their larger stores where you can walk in or dine inside! But the bag I got ripped ☹️ I put an ice pack inside to keep the macarons fresh but the ice pack slowly melts yk so then it got part of the bag wet and it ripped 🙃

Anyways...! While I was in California I got to eat lots and did a lot of snacking 😢 But I don't think I gained THAT much weight? Maybe like 5 pounds max! I have yet to weigh myself but I'll try to by like Monday...

My waist is still a whopping 32 inches though 🙂

Ummm what else to say lol idk

Ummm today I woke up and chose not binge kinda. So I had almost a whole pack of ritz crackers (like 240 calories I think??) along with like 1/3 a sausage (200???) and like 1/8 cup of sliced cheese (50..?). Then rice crispys like 270 calories. Idk what it is but I LOVE rice crispys way more than home made ones! It's like whatever chemical they put on them to make the stay fresh lol. Then I had some grapes (100) and water and that was my breakfast. I mean I did wake up at 3pm tho... Then I had dinner at like 9 which was 8 Korean fried chicken drummets? So like probably 500 calories maybe more? Then I had more grapes (100) :)

After I finished the grapes I didn't feel well. I felt like puking so I was like okay let's purge then! 😃 So I went into the bathroom and shoved the bottom part of my toothbrush down my throat a few times and did my business 👀😳

Honestly the first two times I did it like over a year ago was rather traumatizing but today it felt easy? Idk but it wasn't hard for me to let everything out so I'm gonna try to keep purging because my fat ass likes to eat a lot :))) I mean today wasn't as bad because it was like less than 2,000 calories so I wouldn't say it was a full on binge but definitely more than I should be eating.

Umm and I'm super behind in school because I was gone for 9 days and skipped school today! So that's what's up <3

I guess that's all for now! See you guys next time 🥺✨💕💕

I hope you guys are doing well and better than me! And remember that you're not alone 🥺 Feel free to message me if you have no one to talk to or vent to! I might not have advice but I won't judge and I'll be a good listener <3<3<3 ✨🦋💕🌷