Change of Heart

Chapter 47

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Arriving back at Alex's house, I went straight to Alex's room. He was still out. Falling to the bed on my back, I set the papers on the corner. I didn't mean for them to fall, but they all ended up scattered on the floor. Perfect. Instead of getting up, I threw my arms over my eyes. I wanted my mind to go blank...forget all that's happened and just restart over. Closing my eyes, I wanted to clear my head, just for all this despair inside of me to disappear..

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Waking up, I found myself in my room. The blue walls surrounded me, posters of different bands plastered on the wall such as Mayday Parade and Green Day. My clothes were scattered all over the ground and some rested on my bed beside me. How did I end up here all of a sudden?

I heard voices from outside the door, almost like whispers. My body threw itself up and I followed the sounds all the way down stairs. My heart raced. No one was here. I began looking around nervously. Two hands wrapped around my wrists and pulled both my arms behind me. I tried screaming out but nothing came out. My voice was completely mute.

"Come on, princess! Why don't we have some fun!" Zander's voice flooded the inside of my ears, and I thrashed my body around. He pulled my arms back further, and his head was right next to mine. I fell to my knees screaming my lungs out but it was all useless. He pulled me back up, and I managed to pull away. I ran straight for the back door which was straight ahead from the front door. Turning the knob, I pulled and pulled but the door wouldn't budge. I began to pound on it like my life depended on it.

My shoulder was grabbed and I was thrusted back into the wall. The impact caused me to fly straight through leaving my body paralyzed from the pain. Zander wrapped his hand around my neck, and raised me into the air. I slowly brought my hands up and took a hold of his arm. "Time for you to meet your demise!" His nails grew and he pushed his hand straight through my body. Blood came spewing out of my mouth and stomach. Zander's lips moved silently one last time before everything went black.

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My eyes shot open and I realized I was screaming. I was being held in place by Alex, his Fingers wrapped around my arms. "Serine, calm down!" I instantly felt my stomach and wrapped my arms around it tightly. Just a dream...a nightmare...I began to notice the sweat on my body, the tears in my eyes. "Serine, look at me. What happened?" Alex lifted my chin up and my eyes met his.

Pushing my lips together, I wrapped my arms around him tighter than ever. My words were staggered. "I saw Zander...he was..there, in my..dream, he was..."

"He's gone." Wrapping his arms around me, Alex reassured me, and repeated himself. "He's gone, Serine. It's over."

I knew it was over, I knew he was gone, but this feeling wasn't. This fear and dread...it still lingers in my heart. A kiss was placed on my forehead, and he rested his forehead on the top of my head keeping me secure. "Alex..I'm terrified...even though he's gone...it's like he hasn't left."

Alex was silent. He understood what I meant, there was no denying it. I couldn't see his expression, nor did I want to at this point. I felt like I just couldn't bare it..

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We laid on his bed, his arms wrapped around me. My hand rested on his chest. I could feel the rhythm of his heartbeat, slow and steady, almost calm. As he slept soundly, I couldn't even get a wink of sleep. After that nightmare, I was afraid to fall asleep so soon after. If I had, I fear that he would only show up again...

I pushed my body up breaking from Alex's warm embrace to break away. I sat up holding my head in my hands. Breathing in and out, in and out. I calmed my body body down a bit, letting up all this tension that was built up inside.

Alex placed his hand on my back, and began to rub it. As he sat up, he moved his hand over to my right arm and pulled my body up against his. "Im sorry, Serine."

Looking up at him, I was confused. "For what?"

"I realized I always say I'm going to be here for you, but I always end up leaving you alone. I left you here by yourself just so that I could go vent to myself. You were in pain, yet I didn't comfort you. I'm-"

"Don't say that!" I cut him off, feeling a little hurt and annoyed. "Stop saying that...from that first time, when we met, even when you terrified me, when you embraced me, no matter what it was, you were always there for me. Even if it wasn't physically...you were there.." I stopped for a moment and rested my head on his shoulder. "You're here now, aren't you?"

He let out a small laugh, and put his hand under my chin lifting my head back. Alex's cheeks began turning red, as did mine. It sent the butterflies in my stomach into flight. "How is it that someone like you ever fell for someone like me?"

My heart soared with the butterflies, and my face heated even more. I thought back to that first time when he asked me if I had already fallen for him, and now that I'm actually faced with this question, I think that I've loved him long before I even met him. I fell in love with him from the images I saw. Seeing him always made me so happy, seeing him and I together. It wasn't until he kissed me for real that I realized I really had fallen for him. Even though he may seemed like a jerk at first, for a demon to steal my heart away, it was unthinkable, but wasn't impossible. I just smiled in return and he placed his lips against mine.

I repeated my thoughts to him as I slowly pulled away. "For a demon to steal my heart was unthinkable, but, it wasn't impossible."

"What kind of answer is that?" He laughed flicking me on the forehead.

I went to do the same to him but he stopped my hand midway. "What do you mean what kind? Thats my answer." Pulling my arm forward, my body pushed up against his more and he joined our lips once again. Unlike the first kiss, I didn't pulled away. I only pushed my lips tighter against his. Our lips swayed swayed together filling my body with such bliss.

This time, he was the one to pull away, and he pressed his forehead against mine. "I love you Serine."

I couldn't help but smile. When he says those words, it feels unreal, like I'm living in a fantasy. But this isn't a fantasy. His words are real, he's real, this whole moment is real. It just makes it even more incredible. "I love you too." Alex grinned and it caused me to giggle.