What We Could Be // cake

Chapter 38

Calum's POV.

I am beginning to regret my decision of even socializing with Luke. He's breaking me. I'm really lucky I have Michael and Ashton. They actually give a shit about me.

"So, you going to the party tonight?" Michael asks stuffing some pizza in his mouth.

"Yeah, why not." I say remembering the memories Luke and I share and how funny Ashton is drunk. I guess I'm going to ask him if he wants to come along.

The bell rings and I quickly catch up with Luke.

"Hello Lucas." I say and Luke blushes at the name I use on him.

"Hello." He replies with a tiny wave.

"You wanna go to the party tonight?" I ask and Luke thinks for a moment before nodding.

Luke and I haven't been to a party together in ages. He's always hanging out with Leo so that's why. School finishes quickly and I walk home chatting with Michael a little. Once I arrive home I dress into my comfiest clothes I read a little and try texting Luke but he ignores me. Soon, Michael opens my bedroom door.

"How did you get in here?" I ask with a laugh.

"Your mom let me." He chuckles. "Now come on, let's go." He says and I slide my phone into my pocket before driving away with Michael to the party. We pick up Ashton and Luke and drive to the house.

I get a happy vibe because Luke and I usually have tonnes of fun in these parties. Michael and Ashton run off and Luke and I go outside and sit at the back like usual.

"This isn't fun. I'm going to get drinks, you stay here." Luke smiles and I smile back as he kisses my cheek before going inside the house.

I wait a little and watch a few people dance around and laugh a little at their drunken moves. Luke soon comes back with two red cups in his hand. He sits back down and swallows a bit down.

"Why didn't you get the whole pack like you usually do?" I ask and Luke shrugs before drinking the rest.

He soon left to get the whole pack. I watched those drunk people dancing and had a conversation with drunk Michael. Okay, Luke has taken way too long. I drink down the remainder of my beer and soon decided to look for Luke. I walked in the house and see a pack of smashed beer bottles. Oh no, I don't like where this is going. I ask everyone and they all say they see him going upstairs and into the bathroom. Okay, maybe he just needed to piss. I run upstairs and try opening the door but it is locked. No... no no no no. I hear a flush and Luke come out.

"Oh Calum hello." He grins.

"Luke? Are you okay? Why were those beer bottles smashed?" I ask.

"Some fucker knocked them out of my hands," Luke said and showed me his hands which had multiple cuts on them. "And I went to the bathroom to wash my hands and had a piss while I was at it."

I raise a brow and nod slowly.

"Okay, get the beer. I'll just quickly use the bathroom myself." I say.

I walk inside and look at every possible hiding spot. Nobody is there. I check the bath, cupboards, ceiling. Nobody. Good. It's not that I don't trust Luke it's just... what if Leo is, like, raping him? What if Luke liked it...? I shudder at the thought and quickly exit before meeting Luke. He's zoned out and has a bottle of beer at his lips. He taps it at his lips every now and then. I sit next to him and smile as I grab a bottle myself and drink a little bit and burn my throat. We stare at drunken people walk by and do stupid things. Luke climbs onto my lap and rests his head on my shoulder. I kiss his forehead and wrap an arm around his waist and kiss his forehead again.

"I love you." I say and Luke turns red.

"I love you too." He replies.

I'm so in love with Luke. If he ever did anything to break our relationship, depression would return, I would be alone... I'd be broken. I'd have nothing to look forward to at school, I'd have nothing to protect, I'd have nothing to hold back my depression, I'd have nothing to constantly think about, I'd have nothing to feel for. That hole I once had in my body would return.

I don't even realize I'm kissing his neck until I want to make sure Luke is alright and alive and well. He spins his head around and I kiss his lips instead of his neck once more. We hold on a little longer until our lips move in sync. He nibbles on my bottom lip and I open my mouth and his tongue enters. Luke soon spins around and straddles my lap by putting one leg either side my hips as his hands move up to the back of my head.

His fingers tangle into my hair sending shivers down my spine and making me groan quietly. Luke soon starts to rub against me. Where did this come from? Luke never did stuff like this before. What if... Leo taught him? No, snap out of it Calum.

"Calum?" Luke calls.

"Huh- What?" I ask.

"Are you alright? You stopped." He says.

"Oh... yeah, I'm amazing. I just got caught in thought I'm sorry." I apologize.

"No it's okay." Luke smiles and I bring a hand to cup his cheek and pull him to me once again.

Our make out is a little more intense now and he continues to rub me slowly and I moan and feel my erection grow. He moans once he hears mine and my lips go down to his neck and I kiss lightly before beginning to suck on his skin. He moans when I reach his sweet spot. My hand glided up and down his stomach and he moans and shudders.

"Fuck, please." I moan as Luke continues to rub into me.

"Can... can we go upstairs?" Luke asks as he turns red.

I feel excitement bounce around me and I nod. I take his hand in mine and we walk upstairs. There's one empty room and I see Michael give me a drunken thumbs up as I walk into the room. I close the door and lock it and I look at Luke. He seems to not know what to do and looks shy as hell.

"It's okay babe, I'll start." I say and Luke nods.

"Take your clothes of babe." I order and Luke does as he asks but leaves his boxers on and I take mine off.

"Lay down baby." I say and he lays back on the bed and his erection grows.

I climb on top of him and put my nose against his as I trace my finger around his chest and around his stomach then down to the top of his boxer line.

"C-Calum please." He whimpers. I kiss him and bring my hand down to his 'part'.

He moans as I slowly begin to rub. His breath gets more rapid. He moans my name countless times and I stop and he stares at me. My hand finally reaches into his boxers and I take his part in my hand and rub it making him throw his head back and moan.

"Fucking please." He half whispers half moans.

"I... I..." He stutters and I shush him quietly.

I know he's close. With one final loud moan the warm white liquid escapes. I smile at my work as Luke regains his breath. I kiss him once more before laying back next to him. He cuddles up to my side and places a kiss on my chest as we fall asleep in each other's arms.