What We Could Be // cake

Chapter 67

Calum's POV.

Everything is so sad, I just want everything to be normal. I barely got a glimpse of sleep. Luke hasn't moved at all and he's still holding me. I sigh and start to get up but someone's finger hooks at my boxers, stopping me.

"You're not going anywhere sir." Luke mumbles.

"I'm just getting some water Luke, I can't sleep." I say and Luke puts a finger up. He pushes me down.

"Luke, I don't feel like doing this." I groan and he puts a finger up again and gets out of bed and tucks me in.

I watch as he walks over into the kitchen and he comes back with a glass of milk. He sits beside me and I prop myself up and he hands me the glass.

"I read somewhere that milk helps you fall asleep. Milk is good." Luke smiles and I smile back and take a sip.

"I'm sorry you couldn't go to the club tonight." I sigh.

"I'd rather go with you than with Michael and Ashton." Luke smiles. "And even if we didn't go to a club and just hung out at home, I'd rather be with you." Luke adds on.

"Thank you Luke." I say and he kisses my cheek.

I down the rest and feel my eyes droop after a while. We lay down again and I snuggle my face into his chest as he wraps his arms around me.

"I love you." I say to him.

"I love you too Lummy." He says and places a kiss on my head.

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I wake up to hear a door swing open.

"Shut the fuck up!" I hear and know it's Michael.

"I have the bitchiest hangover yet so don't tell me what to fucking do!" Ashton shouts and flops down onto his bed and Michael shuts himself in the bathroom.

"What a great way to wake up." I say sarcastically and Luke groans.

Michael sits on his bed and runs a hand through his hair and catches me staring.

"The hell do you want?" He asks.

"Woah, you guys need to calm the fuck down. What happened?" I ask and Michael glares at Ashton and he simply glares back.

"Well, this fucker here decided it would be funny to turn the music up full volume when I was asleep in the car!" Michael shouts.

"Guys calm down." Luke says and they continue to fight. "GUYS, SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I shout and they stare at me.

"You're helping no one." I say and Michael angrily turns away from us and so does Ashton.

Luke and I look at each other worriedly and I notice Michael isn't mad just because of Ashton, it's because of me too. He's not begging anymore, now he's just plain mad. I think I should go talk to him... but I don't want to. He punched me and my eye bled! Luke whispers over to me that I should probably go talk to Michael and I get scared. What if he doesn't listen to me?

"Just think for a minute, he's been trying to protect you for how long now? And he simply punched you and you won't forgive him now? Look, his punch was good enough to make an eye bleed. You should be proud he wanted to throw a punch that fucking hard to Leo." Luke says and I nibble on my lip before slowly making my way over and sit in front of him.

"Are you okay Michael?" I ask and he frowns.

"Do I look okay?" Michael spits and I feel offended for some reason.

"Look... I'm really really sorry... I've realized what I've done." I say and the expression on his face stays cold.

Oh no, what if he doesn't forgive me? What if he hates me forever? His face soon softens and he sighs.

"I'm sorry too Calum. I didn't see where I was going and I meant to punch Leo but... that didn't work out." He says breathing out a chuckle and I chuckle along.

"It'll heal.. it just scared me a lot I guess." I say and Michael smiles.

"Thanks Calum. I need some sleep now, my head is pounding like a bitch." Michael says and I nod. "Good... morning Michael." I say and he chuckles before I stand up and walk over to Luke and he smiles up at me.

"What about Ashton?" I ask and he explains that he took care of him.

Well... it only took a simple apology for our band to connect again. I don't know about Ashton and Michael but I'm sure they'll lighten up on each other. I climb under the covers with Luke and just think.

'What if Michael is just playing around with you? What if he actually hates you?'

'Oh god not you. Please go away.' I mentally answer.

'Look at him,' it says and I look and Michael. 'The way he slumps his shoulders.'

'He's fucking sleeping. Now go away.' I say.

'Something tells me that you want to know what's wrong with you.'

'No! I don't want to know!'

'How about the way Luke is holding you?'

'Luke is holding me normally.'

'Yes, you're right. Normally, without any trace of love.'

I spin around and Luke pulls me in closer, kissing me cheek.

'He didn't kiss your lips. He doesn't love you.'

'You just want me to be miserable, don't you?' I spit and I can tell its offended.

'No, Lummy, I'm pointing out the facts.'

'Shut up! Don't call me Lummy!' I say and begin to get a knot in my throat.

'What? You don't want your boyfriend to call you Lum Lum anymore?' It says in a voice like it's talking to a baby.

'You're not Luke! Luke would never ever do anything like this. Luke loves me.' I shoot back.

'You'd better rethink that.' It says and i gulp and look up at Luke.

He looks completely normal. Peaceful.

'He's fucking normal. Go away.' I say.

'What about Ashton? He doesn't even talk to you anymore.'

'He does! Why are you fucking attacking me all of a sudden?!'

'Because you're too happy.'

'Being happy is good!'

'Well you don't seem so happy anymore.'

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I shout and tap my ears.

Everyone jolts awake as I begin to sob.

"Shh, it's okay Calum, I'm here." Luke whispers soothingly and he wraps an arm around my waist.

"I'm such a fucking mess!" I shout.

"IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO FUCKING HEAR?!" I shout at the voice.

'Good job Calum. What else do I want to hear?'

"LUKE DOESN'T LOVE ME! NOBODY DOES! ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?!" I shout.

"Calum, of course I love you." Luke says.

"No you don't! Don't play fake with me!" I sob.

"Calum--"

'He doesn't love you.'

"You don't love me!" I shout and I suddenly feel someone's lips on mine making me stumble back a little and I feel all my problems disappear.

"I do." Luke says and I breathe out and look at Ashton and Michael.

"I'm... sorry." I say and they shrug.

"It's fine." Ashton says with a smile.

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A/N: HI IM SORRY THERE WAS SO MUCH DIALOGUE IN THIS AND ILL TRY TO ADD LESS NEXT TIME <3