What We Could Be // cake

Chapter 27

Calum's POV.

No no no! Why did I do that?! I was supposed to tell Luke I still like him! I looked over my shoulder to see him running away. I felt a lump rise to my throat. I ran into the boys bathroom and stared at myself. A tear slowly fell down my cheek. I wiped it away and washed my face with a bit of water before drying it up with a few tissues.

The bell rung and I smiled to myself. I get to sit with Xavier now and I didn't have to deal with Luke anymore. I grabbed my bag off the floor and slung it over my shoulder before making my way to my classroom. I don't remember the last time I actually cried over someone. I don't think I ever have actually. I sat next to Xavier.

"Ben getting jealous yet?" I asked.

Xavier sighed and shook his head and asked me about Luke and I explained it.

"C'mon man! You had your chance!" Xavier said punching my arm lightly.

"I know, I know, I just... I fucked it up." I sighed rubbing my eyes.

I needed to talk to him. I put him through so much shit and he still came back. I needed to apologize to him and thank him for that. I felt like he wouldn't talk to me after what I did. I needed to get him to talk to me. No, I had to get him to talk to me.

Soon, school was quickly over and I ran to the front of the school, waiting for Luke to come out. Everyone had left already and he soon came out looking down and then scanning the area. I ran up to him.

"Luke, Luke please I am so so sorry, I was pissed, I didn't mean to--"

He cut me off and grabbed the collar of my shirt and pulled it causing for our lips to crash into one another. I swear my lips were throbbing because they missed his so much. I place my hand on his hips as his wrapped around my neck. Our kiss deepened and our lips began to move in sync. I let go and placed my forehead on his.

"I put you through so much, and you're still forgiving me?" I asked.

"I can't not have you in my life. I need you Calum." Luke said.

We walked home together, hand in hand. I was so freaking happy that he didn't punch me for doing all that to him. He explained how he only pulled away because Liz wouldn't let him see me and we confessed about using Xavier and Leo. Luke kept wiping his lips and I could tell he felt dirty or something for kissing Leo.

We finally were at his house and Liz was standing in front with her arms crossed. She sent a deadly glare to me. Why did she hate me so much?! She pulled Luke in the house and slammed the door. I knew he was getting in trouble. Liz didn't want him to see me and she found him walking home with me. I sighed and walked home alone. It was strange having no warm hand to hold. I didn't even get to say bye. I finally arrived home.

"Calum?" mom called.

"Yeah?" I shouted back.

"Aren't you meant to be at therapy?" she said walking down the stairs.

"Yeah, but I don't want to go." I said.

"Calum, please. Go now." Mom said in a serious tone.

"Therapy isn't helping mom! it's just making things worse! The woman's too happy for me!" I shouted back.

"Calum, you WILL go!" She screamed.

I felt like my mom was 700x taller and I was as smaller than a bug. I grabbed my coat and ran out the house. I wasn't going to therapy, I just didn't want to be home right now.

I sat at the playground bench and sighed. My mom is usually really nice but... why does she want me to go to therapy so badly? Like, yeah, she found out I cut somehow but why would she force me so hard? I didn't even know what I wanted anymore. Mali Koa was moving to go to university soon and I would be stuck with mom alone.

My phone began to ring and it flashed Polly's name. I picked it up.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey Calum!" she said giggling.

Damn she's so happy.

"Where exactly are you? Don't we have therapy today?" she asked.

"Yeah I just don't feel like going. Please, if you want me to be happy don't tell mom." I said.

"Oh... okay, if that's what you really want. Bye Calum!" She shouted and ended the call.

I hated Polly so much. I really just wanted to be watching a movie or something with Luke.