Love

19

Next Morning

I woke up and brushed my teeth. I heard voices again and went downstairs. "Why every time I wake up I hear you talking to somebody." I said as I'm walking towards the kitchen. As I walk in the kitchen I see my Dad and Kaila. "Lo" Kaila jumped up and ran to me. I hugged her so tight as if I haven't seen her in forever. I kissed her forehead and let go. But she was still holding on tight. "You okay?" I asked. She just hugged me tighter and I could feel my shirt a little wet. I pulled her back "Why are you crying mama?" I asked looking worried. "Kaila was wrong?" Chris said walking over to us. She looked down and played with her fingers. "Kaila." My dad said getting angry. "Dad took me over to Malinda's house to hang out with her. Her mom got a new boyfriend and he been raping Malinda. I told her to pack some stuff and we would leave. So on our way out he had his friend over and they stopped us from leaving." she said crying more. Chris balled his fist up. "They both took turns raping us. In that moment I just wanted mommy but then I realized she was gone and couldn't help. Then you were here. I needed mom and I needed you. I feel so nasty and gross." she said through her tears. I cried to remembering my situation. "What happen after?" Chris asked. "He told me if I told anyone he would have dad killed. So I knew if I called him he would know something was up so I just went back to her room and cried all night. When he came to get me I pretended like I was fine but I knew I couldn't lie for to long. He asked me on our way here from the airport and I told him. He told me I had to tell you guys." Kaila said. I just pulled her back into a hug and cried with her. I know what she going through and its not a good feeling. I just rubbed her back "I want you to go take a bath and just relax. Afterwards we are going to talk me and you okay?" I said. She nodded and went upstairs. I looked at Chris and my dad "What are we going to do?" I said crying but mad as hell. "Your not doing anything. Me and Dad got this." Chris said. "You know I can't do that." I said. "Lo if something goes down, we need someone here to take care of Kaila. I promise you we going to make them both pay." Chris said. I nodded and went out back for some air. I cried more but tried to breathe through it. I needed August right now but most importantly my mom. "Mommy why did you leave me? Why? I need you. I feel so helpless because I wasn't there for her when she needed me. What do I do?" I said and cried into my hands. My phone started ringing and I looked at it. It was August. I wiped my face and answered the phone

August: My girl (he looks at my face) you crying?

Love: I need you right now August. (crying more)

August: Talk to me.

Love: Kaila went to one of her friends house back home and her friends mom boyfriend raped her. I wasn't there for her. I didn't protect her from this. This my fault. My mom is gone and I didn't step in to be her mother because my mom would have never let her go over there if she knew he was there. I blame myself for what happen to Kaila.

August: Hey listen to me babygirl, What that nigga did to Kaila is not your fault nun of this is. You did not know. The only thing you can do right now is be there for her and help her with this because you been there. And understand more than anyone how she felt right now. Me, your dad and Chris will handle the rest.

Love: Okay. (still crying)

August: Stop crying okay. I don't like to see you crying and sad and I'm not there to hold you.

Love: Can you hurry up and come back. I really need you right now. (I sit the phone down and cover my face because I start crying more because I really miss him and need him right now.)

August: I promise I'll be home soon. I love you so much princess.

Love: I love you.

August: Can you look at me when you say it?