Love

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We pulled up back to the house and August mom was sitting on the couch. "I'm going to go take a shower while y'all talk." August said and went upstairs. I sat down next to his mom. "So tell me about yourself and when I say tell me about yourself I don't mean favorite color. I want you to tell me what makes you the women you are and all the real shit you went through in your life." she said. I laughed and then took a deep breath. "Where do I even started." I said. "You can trust me but if you not comfortable telling me some things I understand." she said. "I trust you." I said and she smiled at me. "Well I grew up in a house with both parents. My grandparents were always around too. My mom never allowed me to ever go over to a friends house if they had a dad or boys living in house because she was raped by her uncle at a young age. She was trying to protect me and she did while I was living with her. But then I moved out here with my bestfriend Kelly and Asia. Asia introduced me to Kevin my ex boyfriend. Everything was good at first but then he started beating on me and raping me. I couldn't go see my mom because he thought I wasn't going to come back. He wouldn't let me talk to her too long because he thought I would tell her what he was doing to me. He would beat me and rape me. He took everything from me. Then I finally got out of the situation with the help from my brother and August but then it was too late for me to make up time with my mom. That's what I regret most because my mom was my bestfriend. She knew everything up until I got with Kevin. I was too late and I blame myself because I should have gotten myself out of that situation. I should of talked to her more but now I can't and its killing me on the inside." I said starting to cry.

August's mom let a tear fall from her eye. She wiped it and pulled me into a hug "I been where you are. I am here for you no matter what happens between you and August. I'm always going to be a shoulder you can cry on." she said and pulled back. "I fucked up when I left my mom's house because I barely talked to her or visit her. I would drop my kids over there and leave. When she died my whole world came crushing down. I was just using her to babysit. But the reason I was doing that is because I blamed her for me getting raped when I was young. I was angry with her even though she didn't know but I felt like a mother always knows so why didn't she realize before I told her what her brother did to me. I held a grudge for so long and now all I want is more time with her to talk about it and fix it. You and your mom was on good terms and I'm pretty sure she still knew you loved her. I never told my mom I loved her. I don't know if she knew I loved her. We as girls and the relationship we have with our mom is super important. I know your scared to have a girl but just make sure you have a relationship like you and your mom. Be her bestfriend but still protect her from this crazy world. We going to be right here helping too." she said. At this point we are both crying "Thank you so much Ms. Alsina." I said trying to smile. "Call me Sasha." she said and smiled back. We hugged and then wiped our faces.

August comes downstairs and looked at us "Girl talk always end in crying." he said and sat down on the other side of me. We laughed "We had a heart to heart. But now I see what you see in her so you better treat her right." Sasha said I laughed and looked at him. "I am going to treat her right and give her the world while she keep giving me babies." he said and I slapped his arm. We all laughed "Well, I'm heading to bed. Goodnight." Sasha said getting up and going to her room. Me and August just sat on the couch "So what's going on? You good?" he asked me. "Just missing my mom. This is something we always talked about and dreamed about. She suppose to be here helping me with my pregnancy. Like I feel the love from everybody and how much everybody cares. But I need my mother's love more than anything right now. Your mom just showed me that and my abuela is showing it too. But I want my mom." I said trying not to cry. "I understand but we going to get through this." he said and put his arm around me. I moved closer to him and just laid there. We made small talk about the baby and then went upstairs. We fell asleep as soon as we hit the bed.