𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐾𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑎𝑛.✔️

#33

Essence (TW: abuse)

"You useless piece of shit" he growled grabbing a chunk of my and throwing me onto the ground, my scalp burned with the horrific sensation it left

I placed my hand on my scalp as I laid on the floor I pushed my body up the slightest to be pushed back down with a foot "what did I fucking say about school huh?!" He yelled in my face from above me spit flying out of his mouth

"Not to go" I whispered shutting my eyes tightly but it didn't stop the tears from trickling down my reddened cheeks

"Huh, huh, say it louder bitch" he yelled louder, I'm surprised the neighbours didn't hear "speak up!"

He took his foot off grabbing the top of one of the few ruined shirts I had, he dragged me up and brought his other hand choking me in the process

I could barely breathe I could barely speak "not to —" I took a shaky breath in from the air barely supplied "go" I breathe out every breath in me with that one word

I'm sure my face was turning purple "that's right" he gripped harder "and instead your dumb ass decided to go—do you know the risk you put us in! Someone could have found you!" He yelled

What does he mean by that?

My eyes started to close and black dots started to form, I can't keep them open any longer—

He let go of my neck pushing me back then slapping me so hard I fell to the floor, I placed my hand on my wet soaked cheek, my breath and heart were uneven "stupide, salope" (stupid bitch) {French} he muttered

I gasped in my own moisture sweat trailing down my forehead and anywhere else you could think off, tears welled up in my eyes, the times I thought I got rid of him I never actually did

He was always with me, the memories will always be with me, I can't get away I'm stuck with them I'm stuck...

It's not fair, Why did he have to do this to me I did nothing wrong. I just want to be a normal teenage girl I can't do this

I can't do this

The door slightly creaked open making my heart skip a beat I pushed myself back to the bed frame gripping the sheets Closing my eyes tightly

The footsteps moved towards me "don't hurt me, don't hurt me I did nothing wrong!" I sobbed releasing the sheets and covering my face

"Babe?" I heard a Bri's voice and then the side of the bed sink, arms slid around my body and pushed me onto a chest, my whole weight was supported by her not that she seemed to care

"I'm not going to hurt you, your ok, it's not your fault you did nothing wrong" she kept chanting into my ear rubbing my back with one arm "shhh"

She slid farther down bringing me with her she laid me back onto a laying position and hugged my body, I gripped hers as if she was going to leave any second, I can't have her leave

She rubbed my back with one arm luring me to sleep while humming a melody, that melody, it was so beautiful

Without realizing it my body fell limp against hers and I fell into a soft slumber

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"Wake up—oh"

"Why are they sleeping together?"

"Do you think they—ow!"

"Shut the fuck up"

"She's waking up! Shh"

My eyes opened a bit as I moved the slightest bit, I felt the grip around me tighten and Bri sprung up from the bed covering me, she looked at the voices immediately sighing and laying back down

"Fucking losers" she muttered going back to sleep, I look from her to the voices seeing those four boys I've grown to like staring back at me with smiles

"Can I join—fucking hell, stop hitting me Jacob" Easton yelled glaring at the raven-haired boy who was laughing

What an adorable smile, he's been smiling a lot more recently, wonder why?

"Why are you guys in here at..." I look at the time "six am" I groaned rubbing the sleep out of my eyes, their smiles widen "what?" I questioned

"School" they all yelled at me, I roll my eyes laying back on the bed, wait what? School?

I jumped up off the bed "we're going to school?" I asked the tiredness leaving me fully "really!" I yelled

"Shut the fuck up!" Bri yelled into my pillows

"Wait is she allowed too?" I asked them making them all nod at me

"Yep," Neil said looking at the sleeping beauty on my bed

"Bri!" I yelled hoping onto her "wake up wake up wake up" I shook her body "we're going to school!" I yelled into her ear

She rolled over quickly causing me to fall off the bed onto my butt, "fuck" I groaned on the floor her face appeared over mine

"Sorry" she smiled sweetly at me then whipped her head up "so I can go?" She yelled asking them

They nodded again

"Ahhhhh" she yelled hopping off "we need to get ready I need to get ready" she jumped off the bed pushing the boys out of the room as she left along, most likely to her room

I laid still on the floor looking at the roof, school. I'm going back to school, I missed the thought of going back.

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"I'm ready I'm ready," I said running down the stairs slipping on the first hoodie I found

"Oomph" I tripped over the last step instinctively putting my hands up ready for the fall, but it never came

I found myself being held up and hands went around my body and a familiar scent filled my nose, of course, it was him

"Watch out" he whispered

I look up seeing Killian staring back at me, I let out a breath of air and straightened my body his hands still wrapped around me, he was fully dressed and had keys in his hand

"Where you going," I asked looking how up and down. He smirked at my action and did the same his eyes stopping on my hoodie for a second longer

"Someone has to sign up my sister for school" he commented releasing me "oh and— nice hoodie looks better on you than it did me" he quirked an eyebrows

I look down confused—wait— I just had to pick his Hoodie out of the clothes I had "whatever it's comfortable" I shrugged walking past him to have him grab me and pull me back

He linked his hand into mine "now let's go" he confirmed nodding his head unfazed and guided me to the car as if it was a normal thing

He's not going to hurt you Essence calm down

I kept telling myself over and over but my mind was still running and my stomach filled with butterflies

Killer butterflies

Everyone was in the back of the car leaving the two fronts seats available, at least it was a big car, I shrugged to myself hopping into the front

As I got in everyone looked at me and smiled "took you long enough" Bri groaned at us

I rolled my eyes at her laughing when the same hand grabbed mine putting it over his as his hand laid on the gear and mine was now over it. I bit my lip and looked out the window not saying anything

Oh Essence get yourself together