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#68

Essence

I woke up with my hand to my mouth, I stood up running to the bathroom in my room dropping the lamp in the process I ran and puked what was all in my system out, fuck me!

I've been keeping this for a while and I was thankful that big hoodies existed, there wasn't a bump that was huge maybe the smallest bit but that's to be expected, I haven't told anyone and I've been dying with this information, I didn't know how to react and I'm scared how Killian would as well, did he want kids did he not want them

I knew for sure I wasn't having an abortion, I can't get rid of it, but I'm scared to bring the thing into this cruel world, especially Killian's world..my world

I sighed resting my head in my elbow, this is the first time I've ever threw up during this whole thing, almost three weeks and I'm going mad

"Essence" the door knocked "I heard a slam are you ok?" I heard Emilio outside my room door yelling, I got up looking around

"Yes! Yes I'm ok I just tripped" I said flushing and running over to the sink to brush my teeth quickly

"Ok, well can I come in then?" He asked me, my eyes went wide and I looked at myself in the mirror, I quickly spat and rinsed my mouth

"Yeah, sure!" I yelled jumping onto the bed

He walked in looking at me confused "why are you out of breath" he asked me, I shrugged my shoulder laying down on my side, my head is in my hand

"Just finished exercising," I said, he looked at me unconvinced but knew better than to ask more questions

"Ok well your boyfriend is coming over for a meeting but feel free to talk to him after if you want," he told me, I nodded my head sighing

"I'll make some breakfast what do you want to eat?" He asked me

"Um—pancakes, eggs, bacon, toast and—" I was about to keep going but his face looked at me crazy, I didn't eat this much on a usual...

"Ok" he nodded "the whole shebang" he mumbled walking out of the room, I sighed laying back into the bed

Oh fuck..there I was again running back to the bathroom

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"Essence wake up!" My body shook in the hands of someone, I gasped waking up suddenly and fast, I see a smiling Bri staring right back at me, "Hi!" She said smiling

"Ugh, Brianna!" I yelled hitting her body "sorry sorry!" She held her hands up in defence

"I missed you so I came with Killian so we could hanggg" she drew out, I smiled at her tiredly "Why are you so fucking tired it's the middle of the day!" I bit my lip, could I trust her?

"Ok if I tell you something do you promise not to tell a soul," I said sitting up fully, she looked at me confused "seems serious," she said

"It's is" I demanded, "verrry—so you have to promise to shut the fuck up!" I said to her, her eyes became worried

She looked at me like she was studying me, then her mouth parted like she found out something "you're pregnant" she placed her hand over her mouth

My eyes went wide how the fuck—

"I'm right!" She yelled

"Bri shut up! Do you want someone to hear us this house is full of people" I whisper yelled at her, she covered her mouth, "oops" she said

"What am I going to do" I cried, "I'm eighteen!" She looked at me thinking

"It's not such a bad thing—" I looked at her like she was crazy "just hear me out ok—Killian is a good person he raised me and Atlas our whole lives were strong because we were born into the mafia because we had someone to teach it to us, with you and Killian in that babies life he or she is going to be the strongest human being"  she reassured me, I sighed