𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐾𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑎𝑛.✔️

#41

Essence

I kept thinking, things I haven't thought about in so long have been coming to the surface, I just want my mind to be quiet, to not be filled with thoughts that make me hate myself even more

"Is she ok" fingers snapped in front of my blurry eyes, I was zoned out of the whole conversation what was I doing, "what's the matter with you?" Easton asked looking at me from the side

"Nothing, I was just thinking" I shrugged playing a smile

"About..?" He drew on

"Life" I kissed my teeth and fiddled with my fingers harder than I should, I squeezed my thumb and my other fingers, scratching picking not caring if it hurt

"Where did the others go"

"Zail went with Killian while he paid" Easton explained

"Why did you let him pay!?" I asked "that's rude since basically, he was the one joining us" I slapped his arm

"Free food who cares Ess"

I scoffed sitting back in the chair, they were all finishing their meals and talking while I sat back listening

"So there's a party at the club" Bri smiled

"Which club?" Jacob asked, did he have more than one club

"Oh right, it's the 666 one, the one Essence works at" she nodded her head

"Say less" Easton smirked widely "the parties there are always the best," he told me

"Cool count me in then I guess" I shrugged my shoulder, the seats across us filled up again and Killian and Zail returned

"Count you where?" Zail asked confused looking at all of us

"the party tonight at the club" Neil informed him, Zail smiled and nodded his head

"Oh yeah a'ight" he smirked enjoying the thought of a party

"You're not going," Killian said for the first time looking me dead in the eye

"What?" I asked, "but everyone else can?" I crossed my arms over my chest and raised my eyebrows, he looked at my movement and leaned back into the chair

"Everyone else is experienced with parties and you...you are seventeen," he said back

"I'll be eighteen in like half a month!" I fought back "and I'll be with people who are 'experienced'"

"You're not going," he said again

"Oh but Bri can go" I narrowed my eyes, since when is he just overprotective of me and not her

He looked at me then at her "you aren't either" he concluded

"Essence don't drag me into this!" She yelled I'm sure the whole place heard

"I'm going," I said finally and stood up leaving the table, stupid men and their stupid rules and stupid gorgeous fucking faces, man did I want to punch him

"No the fuck you arent" he trailed after me as I'm sure everyone else followed along, I said nothing and walked into the backseat of the car this time and sat down

I looked out the window and smiled to myself, I was going to this fucking party

"Essence you're staying home!" He yelled getting in the front and slamming the door

"Shit man don't break it," Easton said getting into the front where I sat before

"I'll buy a new one who fucking cares" he rolled his eyes starting the engine, Bri sat in beside me and smiled, I smiled back unfazed