Finding his soul

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She covered her mouth and I smiled at her.

"Kaden no" she whispered.

I held the ring between my thumb and index finger and looked at her.

"I thought I wanted you as my girlfriend but then I remembered that I don't see you as my girlfriend" I smiled.

"What are you doing?" She whispered.

I licked my lips and smiled, "the reason I don't see you as my girlfriend is because" I looked down and ran my tongue against my inner cheek, I looked back at her and saw how shocked she looked.

"is because I want you to be my wife, I want to spend all of the miserable days on earth with you" I chuckled and smiled at her, "so I'm not sure how this goes but would you Naomi Smith be my wife so i can make you Naomi Richardson?" I looked at her.

I saw her lips part and she looked away, "Kaden I'd be happy to be your wife" she smiled.

I stood up and put the ring on her finger, she looked at me and I saw tears in her eyes. She kissed me and I smiled during the kiss.

She pulled away and I saw her crying, "why are you crying?" I whispered.

"I just never thought I'd get married" she smiled, "you aren't just proposing because I'm pregnant are you?" she whispered.

"No of course not" I smiled and she hugged me, I could hear her soft cries against my chest.

I saw Mia walk in, she wore a pastel dress and she looked drunk. "Ahh look who had a soft spot" she said.

Naomi turned and looked at her, Mia walked up to Naomi and looked at her hand.

"Engaged?" Mia looked at Naomi.

"Mhmmm" she smiled.

I looked at Naomi and and smiled at me, "this is expensive, look at it, it's a beautiful ring" she whispered.

"I know it's beautiful" Naomi smiled.

"I'll be back" I whispered and went to the backyard, I lit a cigarette and smiled to myself.

At first, I didn't think she'd say yes, I was surprised she did after I broke her multiple times when we were kids, I bullied her in the hallways because I was scared of what other people would think of me if I cared for her.

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I laid next to Naomi and watched as she slept, I smiled to myself and looked at how peaceful she was.

I needed her, i didn't realize how badly I needed her. I was made for her, I never realized it past everything we had. I was such an asshole to the precious girl, the saint virgin who lived next door.

The girl with no experience and a lot of innocence, something that I had taken from her in a drunk moment.

A selfish moment but I wanted to make her happy, for once I actually believed that my life had a purpose, she was my purpose.

I needed her more than she needed me, she kept me stable, and never in my life would I have thought that I'd be engaged with her, I've thought about it but I never thought it would be reality.

I cheated, slept around for months, I ruined the one good thing that I had in my life.

I broke her into pieces over and over again while I put her back over and over, I hated the fact that I used to be selfish.

I don't want to get my hopes up about these twins, I'm scared to lose them. I was scared of how badly it would hurt again.