Finding his soul

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I woke up and felt a sharp pain in my stomach, I sat up and noticed that Kaden wasn't here.

I walked into his room and didn't see him, I texted him.

Kaden

Where are you?

At work
I'll be back in a few hours

Okay

Are you okay?

Yeah
i just didn't know
where you went

Oh okay

I'll be back soon
Don't miss me too much

I definitely won't

Don't be in denial

Eww

I put my phone on his desk and looked at the picture of him and Mia, they looked so young.

Kaden looked so hot his hair was messy in this picture just how I liked it. His black hair was beautiful they complimented his green eyes.

I looked at his drawer and saw it was open slightly, I opened it and saw a book I picked up the book and opened it, it was his journal.

I followed the string from the latest page, I sat on his bed and read it.

Turns out she does love me, she accepted my proposal and I'm having twins. I'm worried about the babies, I'm scared that I'll lose them again.
I'm not ready to lose another child matter of a fact I'm not emotionally ready to lose two babies. I'm surprised accepted.

I broke her, I ruined the innocent virgin who knew nothing about me, nothing about sex she was an innocent girl who I had broken. I cheated on her multiple times because I was selfish and because I couldn't love myself.

But when I saw her last night, I couldn't bear the thought of hurting her again. The way she felt safe in my arms made me feel different, I didn't want to let her go.

I didn't sleep for hours, I just watched her as she slept, her little mumbles as she dreamt and they way she snuggled into me.

I thought she'd hated me but in reality she was didn't, she was the blessing that I needed, I've been so focused on work that I forgot about my own happiness.

She made me happy and for once I couldn't bear the thought of not being in the same room as her, being away from her made me feel sad and lonely.

I wanted to tell her all about my past, the things she doesn't know...they scare me, bringing them up makes me relive the trauma that I've been trying to cover up for years.

If anyone hurt her I'd kill them, I hated how anyone looked at her, I wanted to hurt anyone who hurt her.
I hated the way anyone talked about her, she's mine, I'm in love with her.

I liked the way that she spoke about me, I loved how I was the only one who could pleasure her, I knew all her spots. I liked how she moaned my name, the first time heard her I didn't want to stop.

I'm never knew how crazy she could make me, If i wanted to I could end up like my father, I'd be worse than him. I'd kill for her, I'd do anything to protect her.

I closed the book back to where it originally was and put it back in his drawer.

I was surprised by what I read, the things that he'd do for me, I walked into my room and looked in the mirror, I lifted up my shirt and looked at my stomach.

I was now showing, I held my stomach and looked at myself.

I felt disgusting and ugly my stomach was now getting bigger, I hated the way I looked.

"Admiring yourself" he said, I looked up at him and saw him smirking. His hands were over the door frame, I could see his muscles through his shirt.

"I look disgusting" I said as I tilted my head slightly and I saw him walk up to me.

I looked at him and saw him lift my shirt off of me, he threw it on the floor and I saw him press his lips together.

"Tell me you're beautiful" he said standing behind me.

I looked at him and saw him look me directly in my eyes.

"Kaden no" I whispered.

"Are you telling me that my fiancée isn't beautiful?" He whispered.

"Yes" I said looking down.

I saw him look down and he looked up at me and smirked, "do I have to make you believe that you're beautiful?" He smirked.

"Kaden I feel disgusting and ugly" I whispered.

"My fiancée isn't ugly or disgusting" he said wrapping his arms around me.

He stated to place soft kisses down my neck, "she's beautiful, smart" he said kissing lower.

"She's amazing at her job and she's very very pretty" he whispered and I leaned my head against his shoulder as he kissed lower.

"You're just saying that" I whispered.

He furrowed his brows together and pulled my towards my bed, he sat down and pulled me on top of himself.

He put his hands on my thighs and I felt his thumbs tracing my inner thigh. I bit my lip and looked at him.

"You're beautiful Naomi, I'd do anything for you to see yourself the way I see you....I think you're the most beautiful woman in the world" he smiled.

"Stop saying that" I whispered and got off him, I laid down on the bed and he looked at me. He hovered over me and trapped me in between his legs.

He started ticking me and I couldn't stop myself from laughing, "tell me your beautiful" he said smiling.

I couldn't get my words out, "i can't" I laughed, he continued to tickle me and I moved from his touch.

"Tell me you're beautiful" he repeated.

"I can't" I said giggling.

"Eres hermosa" he said as he stopped tickling me.

"What does that mean?" I whispered.

He smiled at me and I saw him look at my lips, he kissed me and I cupped his cheeks.

"You're beautiful" he whispered.

I smiled and he looked at me, I could never really tell what he was thinking when he looked at me.