Finding his soul

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I woke up next to Kaden, I realised that his hands were wrapped around my waist. I turned around and looked at him, I looked at his arm and saw the tattoos.

I looked at his face and saw how beautiful he looked when he slept, he wasn't bad, he needed comfort last night but it makes me sad that his only form of comfort is sex.

When it should be cuddling or talking it out.

I guess it has everything to do with his past but i feel terrible about his mothers death.

He didn't deserve to lose the one person he loved the most, he's told me many stories about what his father did to his mother but I think he left out a lot of the trauma.

He's a good person really.

But last night was amazing, I haven't had anything like that in a long time and for Kaden to give me exactly what I needed made me feel complete.

I was so close to telling him that i loved him last night but I'm happy that I didn't, I couldn't imagine what his reply would be does he even love me.

"You're thinking too much" he mumbled, I saw his hair and how messy it looked, I loved the messy hair look, especially on him.

"I know" I whispered.

"Don't overthink" he whispered.

"I can't help it" I mumbled.

"Hmm, try" he said pulling me closer to himself. i was inches away from his face and he groaned.

"Stop starring" he mumbled.

"Why?" I whispered.

"Because" he said putting his head into the pillow, I heard banging on the lower half of his door.

"Are you naked?" He asked.

"No I got dressed last night" I said smiling.

"Okay good" he said turn ring to face the door, "is that Zane or Jayda?" He asked.

"Guess" I heard Jayda's voice.

"Hmmm maybe that's Zane, my Jayda is a big girl" he said smiling.

I liked the connection he had with the twins, they needed him as much as he needed them.

"Daddy guess" I heard Jayda say.

"I don't know baby" I heard him say.

I hard the door open and saw Jayda standing in the doorway with a toy, she walked in and walked to the edge of the bed.

Kaden looked her up and she sat on his chest, "daddy you didn't guess" she said.

"I was scared I thought it was a monster" he said smiling.

Hausa giggled and looked at me, "mommy" she said smiling.

"Hey baby" I said.

"Mommy, daddy together" she said looking at Kaden.

Kaden looked at me and I looked at Jayda, "Umm well mommy actually helped daddy fight the big monsters downstairs all day yesterday" he said smiling.

I smiled and he lifted Jayda up, "where's Zane?" He asked while putting her between us.

"He's mean" she said crossing her arms.

"really?" Kaden said to Jayda.

"Yes daddy, he broke my stuffy" she said holding her bear in front of Kaden's face.

"What he did this?" Kaden said.

"Yes" she said.

Kaden held the bear in his hands and she looked at me, "tell him off" she said to me.