High School Au- Bungou Stray Dogs AU

the truth

TW: slight mentions of abuse

Dazais P.O.V.

I sneak out and go to atsushis house the next day. He lets me in and i sit on his couch akwardly. "Aren't your parents gonna question why I'm here?" "They're already at work" he sits down next to me and hugs me. "Plus I don't think they would mind you being here" oh yeah that's right I forgot most people have normal parents. I slowly grab onto his hand. "Do we have to go to school today? Why can't we just say here like this. It's so much nicer." He looks at me and runs his fingers through my hair. "Dazai are you okay? You seem so stressed out and tense and scared." Shit. Ive gotten to comfortable with him and I've started showing how I actually feel. "Yeah I'm fine- like I said I'm just really teird and stressed about my grades-" before I can finish talking he lays my head on his chest. "Then stay, I'm okay with missing school for a day, plus something is obviously going on." "O-okay- let me tell chuuya and aku" I grab my phone and quickly text them explaining before cuddling up to atsushi again. "Is there something going on Dazai" "can we not talk about this please...I don't want to think about it" I've given up on keeping my happy little act up, he's seen through it by now. He nods slowly before holding both my hands.

We stay like that for a good while before I get up. "Look atsu..I need to tell you something" he looks at me "okay- what is it?" I try to look him in the eyes but panic and loom down at our, still linked, hands. "I...I know this is gonna come off as really wierd but I kinda like you like-" I sigh "like love like you...and I know this probably sounds ridiculous and you probably don't even like guys I just needed to get it off my chest" he looks at me and blinks a few times. I start to get up. "Look I'll go-" but he grabs onto my hand tighter. "I...Dazai I love you to." I feel my face get red. I sit back down and cling onto him and start crying. "I was so scared you were gonna hate me" "hey, Dazai calm down. I would never hate you. It's okay calm down" I feel him hug me again and I lay my head on his shoulder. "While I'm dumping out everything on my mind...your right...there's a lot going on but I don't really know how to explain it all..."