High School Au- Bungou Stray Dogs AU

phone call

TW: abuse, s*lf h*rm, panick attacks

Dazais P.O.V.

The next few days go by oddly nice. I've gotten atsushi to eat and I've been having less panic attacks. It almost seems to perfect. "Atsu i think we should go back to school at some point" "alright- but only if you wanna" "yeah I need to get back at some point"

After a few more days we do go back once I have the motivation. But the second I walk into my first class the teacher looks at me and tells me to go to the office. "Uhm why-" "I said go." "Alright alright" once I get there I look at the office staff. "What." "Dazai can you please come into my office" one of them looks at me and starts talking. I nod and follow them because I've learned if you don't do what your told you get in even more trouble. "So what do you want-" "so what do you think we do when a kid randomly disapears and then comes back to school?" "Uh- I dunno let them live there life" I anxiously look at the table. I can feel myself shaking. "No. Were gonna call your dad-" "NO. NO THE FUCK YOU ARE NOT." now I'm definitely shaking. "Dazai calm down-" "dont call him please" "why not-" "he's gonna hit me..." the person stays quite and looks at me. "Huh-" "look stop im not doing this shit today just don't fucking call him." I get up and storm out of the office, text chuuya and aku about what happend and then lock myself in the school bathroom.

After trying to calm myself down and failing I grab some blades I found and hide out of my backpack without even thinking and start dragging them across my arms. I don't stop until I start to get dizzy then I just put it away and wrap up my arms. I pull my sleeves down and start crying even more. "THEYRE GONNA CALL HIM THEYRR GONNA FUCKING CALL HIM. WELL GREAT JUST FUCKING GREAT ME AND CHUUYA AND AKUS LIVES ARE RUINED AND ITS ALL BECAUSE OF ME." after I stop screaming I hear my phone ring and when I see that its that bastard I chuck my phone at the floor. "So they really did calm him huh..." a few minutes later chuuya and aku start blowing up my phone. I answer it "hey..." "dazai what the hell is going on why is mori screaming at us to come home and where are you!?!" "Stop it. Stop. Stop yelling at me. And I know this is all my fault okay!?! If I hadn't come back to school they never would've called him. And for your information im having a panick attack half conscious on the bathroom floor." "Okay look...im sorry for yelling me and aku are just really freaked out okay? Calm down. And why are you half conscious?" Shit. I can't tell them I relapsed. Not again. "From hoe much I was panicking. Anyway were still going back to atsus right? I don't think mori will come look for us" "yeah...we are. But you can't skip anymore school dazai" "I know..." I hang up and start trying to find a better way to hide my new cuts.