If the world wasn't ending || LeviHan

Chapter one°

A/n: Most people don't really read the captions, so I'll say it again. This contains Spoilers for the Manga chapters 126 and after!!!
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PoV: Levi

As I felt the darkness surround me further with every second that passed by, my body went from numb to burning flames which were licking on my skin and causing a painful fracture inside out.

Was this where I'd die? Would this be my last moment forever?

Taking a choking breath, smoke came into my lungs once again and I tried to cough it out, but my body was too weak for doing it, so all that was left for me to feel was the reddish liquid running out of my mouth. Blood.

I couldn't see anything either. I wasn't even able to recognize whether my eyes were now opened or closed and the only sound audible was the ringing tone inside of my ear mixed with the cracking of fire around me.

Maybe I wouldn't have to fight anymore. Everyone I cared about was as good as dead anyway. My mom when I couldn't even properly walk, my comrades killed by the female Titan, Falan and Isabel because they convinced me to let them fight alongside me when I first joined the scouts, Erwin because I had to decide between him and Armin and picked Armin, uncountable deaths from any scout regime, my squads being exterminated every single time and in the end the only one standing would be me.
All because I put my trust in Eren Jaeger for the sake of Humanity.

One of my many fatal mistakes.

I didn't even know if Hange was still alive at this point.
I hoped they were, they deserved so much more credit than what they got. Maybe I never really showed it, but I did care about all those weirdos. Especially Hange.
That stupid titan freak. Nothing but their experiments and oddly specific ways of doing them in their head as it seemed. Well, as I figured that wasn't true. In the end, all that was left behind from them was the pressure of being commander and everyone around them noticed it.

Hange's child-like excited appearance disappeared completely and was replaced with seriousness and a worried frown on their face.

It almost hurt myself seeing them like that. So beaten up and in inner desperation. I wanted to talk to them about it, but I couldn't. I wasn't able to let anyone come close to me ever again.

Because the moment someone mattered to me, they died.