If the world wasn't ending || LeviHan

》Chapter 12《

PoV: Levi

It was like the perfectly held in control over myself was slipping out of my fingers, my emotions about to burst out of me all at once.

Practically feeling my heart beating up to my throat, I squinted my eyes a little open, just to notice Hange had theirs closed too, but still held onto me at the same time.

They weren't leaving. At least not for now. And this was all I, myself, had left here to hope for.

Our foreheads and noses touching, I felt their breath that stroke over my lips, trying not to move even though all my working muscles were on tense in that moment.
A few seconds passed like that before I felt them leaning in, closing the small gap between us with our lips touching for a moment before Hange backed off again. Their eyes open just when I opened mine and their whole face red, probably matching my own.

"I'm sorry I didn't think-," they already began apologizing, but I interrupted.
"Disgusting, do it again."

They looked confused for a moment before rethinking my words when I used my functioning hand to get them slightly towards me, kissing them again.
It was slow and soft, comforting in ways that words couldn't begin to describe. My good hand rested on their shoulder eventually as my eyes closed again automatically and I could sense them pulling me closer until I felt the beating of their heart against my chest.

Breaking it repeatedly for air and having the realization of what just happened kick in, I looked down to my hands and the ground again, swallowing down some of my pride from before.
What's done has been done, no going back.

"So uh-, eh?" Hange began stammering, both their hands fidgeting a little in their lap which I could see out of my perspective.
"I don't know what to say.." They then managed to form a full sentence, sighing in a long breath.

"I don't either. This was stupid of me to say and do anyway afterwards." I responded, looking nonchalant again as my usual expression was like, even though it was not any prove of what I was actually feeling right now.

Everything inside of me was chaos without that I knew how to fix it. I couldn't risk getting too attached again.. even though it probably already happened subconsciously.
Still, it seemed like everything and everyone I touched was meant to die, I couldn't burden them with my existence this way.

"No, not stupid maybe." They gave back, laughing quietly and rather awkwardly.
"But I uh, don't know how to feel right now." Hange admitted as they pushed their glasses up their nose.

"It's okay. Don't stress yourself." I just said, staring at a random point behind my company.

"Do you.. like me?" Hange broke the silence by asking that, causing me to gulp heavily, insecure to answer that because it would change everything. Again. I hated changes when there was no clue of knowing where it would lead.
"What way?" I asked back, trying to brush it off.

The brunette paused for a moment before answering, their voice quieter than before.
"...More than a friend."

"You could say that." It was too late to deny anything anyway, so my only choice was to get over with it and forget it.

"Okay." Hange nodded once I looked back up at them a little further.
"Yeah."

They began fidgeting with their hands once more, then scratching the back of their neck nervously and adding more.
"I like you too more than a friend."

My heart probably just skipped a bit, but I had no idea of how to react to something like that. It hadn't previously happened this way in ever.
"Oh. Okay."

They exhaled some air, shaking their head.
"We don't need to discuss anything right now, get well again first."

"Okay."