The secret's of my life

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Tons of things are reeling around in my head as it’s only a few days until the wedding.  There is so much to a wedding the decorations, the cake, the bridesmaids (obliviously Anna- Jane) and the colour scheme and finally the dress. I wish my mum was here sometimes then I would have that moment where my mum cries seeing how beautiful I’m in my wedding dress but I’ll never have that and Andy’s family and my uncle is the closest thing I’ll ever get to having a real family. I mean who cares about the fancy labels my father is a mental case and I don’t see him as a father figure, what father hands his little girl over to a monster?

I come running down the stairs in a light blue summer dress. The whole house is silent which is a change because normally there is some sort of noise whether it be splash barking or Andy’s mum getting all hipped up.

I am on the last when

SURPRISE!

People jump out and I put my hand on my heart. Andy would never have done this he knows how jumpy I am now so it had to be his mum.

“Oh my word you scared the heart out of me”

“Morning babe” Andy kisses me on the lips and I instantly melt with tingles.

“These people aren’t supposed to be here until tomorrow”

“Yeah blame my mum for that” I look around and see familiar faces Fisher, Bruno, Maxi and all the others are here that saved me in Australia.

Two people that I don’t know approach us. A girl with short fiery red hair and a man with blonde shaggy hair

 “This is Karen and her boyfriend Garth. Karen’s my cousin”   

“Congrats Andy she looks like a keeper, Andy hasn’t dated since he was sixteen we were beginning to lose hope”

“Thank you Karen”

I laugh “It’s lovely to meet you Karen”

“Don’t kill me babe”

“Andy why would I kill you?” I follow his gaze and my eyes land on Anna holding my little girl.

“Congrats guys” Anna says but I can only focus on the little buddle of joy wrapped in the pink blanket.

“Why don’t we go somewhere private” all I can do is nod.

Andy leads us all up the stairs and into his room. His room is the same full of medals damn where have I seen these before they look so familiar. Anna sits on the bed.

“You should hold her”

“No I can’t” I fight the urge to sweep my daughter into my arms and never let go off her for even a second.

“She is your daughter. I know it’s hard but you just can’t forget about her”

Anna places Alicia into Andy’s arms. I watch him holding my daughter and that’s the moment that I know Andy will be a great father but if I was to have his baby what would my father and Hunter do? Would they kill Andy? Kill the baby? No I refuse to let that happen for so long my heart has had a barrier up and Andy is breaking them all down.

“Rachel please don’t do this to yourself she is your flesh and blood” Anna begs me, I really do want to hold Alicia it’s just that I know I have to say goodbye again.

“I’m afraid that if I do I won’t be able to let her go”

“You will I know you will, you love her just don’t deny it. Don’t do what your mother did be a part of Alicia’s life”