"Who is that?" Natasha asks confused, I look at her as she analyses my tear stained cheeks and my red swollen eyes "Oh no" Steve says sadly his eyes widening "How?" Steve asks "by the time I got there she was already um" Bucky says "dead" I reply "she's dead" I say "they saw her and they just fired" I say setting her down on the floor "we'll give her a proper burial" Tony says "who was she?" Natasha asks "she was my little girl" I say kneeling beside her lifeless body on the floor and finally closing her eyes "I didn't even get to know her" I say to myself while brushing her long hair out of her face
The rest of the ride home was awkward and silent, I pick Marie's body up once again before walking towards the woods by the lake "Gen" Bucky calls after me, I don't look back. My heart is broken into pieces once again as I try to come to terms with watching the life drain for her eyes again, I failed her once and I failed her again. How could I let this happen to her again? Maybe sterilising me was the best thing Hydra could have done, how could I be a good mother if I have done nothing but bring her pain and suffering her whole life. This is reality of my life, I could never be a real mother to her or any other child that would have been born. I know that now
I begin to burry her remaining in silent as Bucky stares at me with worry and tears in his eyes, he cares for Marie. I know he did as did Steve, but their grief is nothing compared to a mother having to watch their child die not once but twice "Genevieve?" Bucky asks, I look down at my daughters grave before looking up at him "Do you want to say anything?" Bucky asks "I-I" I croak out "I need a drink" I reply before walking away from him heading directly into the party room and sitting at the bar with a bottle in my hand. Bucky sits on one side of me while Loki sits on the other "I don't need a baby sitter" I complain while taking a sip directly from the bottle "you are right darling" Loki says "we're here to drink" Bucky says taking the bottle from me and drinking
A couple of hours of drinking in silent I speak up "I came to terms with her death, it hurt but it was years ago. What hurts the most is the fact that they killed her twice" I say taking another sip "and we will get rid of them all" Bucky says "our team is bigger than ever." Bucky says looking at Loki, I nod slowly "we have a bigger problem coming" I say "whoever wants my powers will come after me and will try kill us all" I say "and that's not a secret considering everything that has happened on this earth" I say "we will be prepared" Loki says "we will try be" I say "I don't want to be the reason everything else goes to shit" I say with a shrug "but, things happens. Death happens, loss happens. And then we move on. That girl I lost today she may have been my child but she wasn't my Marie anymore" I say
"She will always be your Marie" Bucky says "you believe that we are the same people we once were? The James and Alexandra we were before Hydra?" I ask seriously " I don't think we will ever be them again" Bucky replies "exactly" I reply "I just don't know what to say" Bucky says "neither do I" Loki also says and I shrug before another swing "I didn't expect you to, this is something that none of you will ever be able to understand. So it's best we just don't say anything" I say, I hear some footsteps coming through the door but I don't bother looking back. I know who it will be, and honestly I'm not ready to talk to him about it either. The boys get up and head out of the room, I can hear their whispers coming from outside but I just block it out. My mind focused on Marie's death, the gunfire, the life draining from her eyes once again begging for me when there was truly nothing I could do, her blood all over my hands and clothes.
I look down seeing my suit still soaked from a mixture of both mine and Marie's blood, I get up from the stool slowly before stumbling out and making my way to my room "let me help" Bucky says trying to hold me "no just let go of me James" I snap pushing him away "when did you get so goddamn clingy" I say annoyed "I just care about you Gen, I'm trying to help" Bucky says "you want to help me? Then leave me the hell alone" I snap again before walking away "you know how she gets when she's hurting" Loki says "I know" Bucky replies, I can hear the sadness in his voice and for a moment I regret talking to him this way. I know life hasn't been easy for him either but the last thing I need right now is for him to be all over me.
I step into the shower watching at the blood and water drip down my body, the flashbacks from both her deaths explode in my mind once again. The pain overwhelms me as I break down, falling onto my knees while sobbing into my hands, the water still dripping down against my skin giving me a sense of comfort as I begin to control my breathing. I finish my shower and get changed into one of the shirts Bucky left in my room and some sweatpants before getting into bed and instantly falling asleep
"There's only one way" the strange man says to me showing me one finger "he will use you to destroy us all, he will be the end of humanity" the man says as I look around watching everyone I love turn into ash, "no" I say "this isn't possible, it's too soon" I say looking around. The man looks into my eyes as if he truly knew me
"find me" he whispers
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Remember me // Bucky Barnes
FanfictionAlexandra Rogers, sister of Steve Rogers, was believed to have died in the ice after the fight against the Red Skull. What happens when Steve finally finds his long lost little sister.
