I wake up groaning slightly as I cuddle into Bucky and for the first time in 5 years I slept properly in the arms of the man I love "Good morning" Bucky whispers while placing a soft kiss onto my forehead "Morning" I whisper while smiling up at him "Fiance" Bucky whispers and I smile "Well look at that, I am engaged. To you" I say with a laugh "Who knew" Bucky says "Who knew" I whisper. We finally decide to get out of bed and head towards the dinning room to have some breakfast to see everyone already there "Look it's the happy couple" Natasha says "I really didn't think you would be out of the room today" Steve says and I shrug
"Loki would have been really happy to know" Thor says "Maybe in some sense, he does" I say with a small smile "With our free time, you need to plan this thing faster than a normal couple" Wanda says "Yeah that's what you, me and Natasha are here for" I say with a wink "We got stuck with wedding planning?" Natasha asks "actually" I say glancing over at Tony "no, absolutely not" Tony says "I was thinking maybe Pepper could" I suggest "maybe I could" Steve says and I raise an eyebrow "I grew up with you, I heard every story and every wedding fantasy you have come up with over the years" Steve says "I would like that" I say smiling "and we can go dress shopping, if we keep this up maybe we can get things settled within two weeks" Wanda says "that's so fast" I say glancing at Bucky who rests his hand over mine with a small smile, but this time there was something weird behind it "okay" I say taking a deep breath
After breakfast me and the girls set off to try and find an idea of the dress I would want to wear "I don't want anything too, um exaggerated" I say "seriously?" Natasha asks "you're the most extra person we know" Natasha says and I laugh "yeah well" I say with a shrug "did you ever imagine you would be getting married again?" Wanda asks "no, I didn't even think I would be falling in love again" I say "after Nicholas things changed for me and the last 5 years was torture being away from James" I admit "I'm as surprised as everyone else is" I say "I'm not surprised" Wanda says "I'm surprised it took him this long" Natasha says with a shrug as we enter a wedding dress store
After trying on one too many dresses I have still found none that feel right "Do you think this is happening too fast?" I ask turning around to face the girls still wearing a wedding dress "This doesn't feel natural to me" I say looking down "You'll find the right one" Wanda says "Why are you having second thoughts?" Natasha asks confused "I'm not, I just" I say with a sigh "I want to, I do. But did he only ask me out of fear of one of us disappearing or dying again?" I ask "This was sudden and completely out of character for James to do" I say slightly panicked "You are just trying to self sabotage because you think it's too good to be true for someone like us" Wanda says "Maybe you're the one afraid to get married because you are scared of becoming a widow" Natasha says and I sigh
"I need to get this off" I say tears filling my eyes as I struggle to take off the dress. I change back into my clothes and we head home, in silent this time "Stop overthinking it, you're not going to lose him again" Natasha whispers are we arrive "I know" I whisper back, I head into my room to see Bucky pacing back and forth "Are we confused about the same thing?" I ask "Was it too sudden?" Bucky asks "Did, did I go too fast with this?" He asks "No, I don't think that us moving too fast is the problem" I say "It took us a century to finally get together" I say "I think we are just waiting for something bad to happen again" I say, while sitting on the bed "Do you think it will?" Bucky asks joining me on the bed, my head is going through all the possible scenarios that can happen doing what we do
"Let's just get married" I say "Nothing big, no giant ceremony. Just us from the compound" I say "We don't need anything else" I say, Bucky remains quiet. I know that look he's also overthink every little outcome that may come from this "You're right" He says "But?" I ask "Come on James you need to talk to me" I say "You can't hide in your head" I say but Bucky shrugs "You're going to do that? about this?" I ask, Bucky turns to look at me but stays quiet "Seriously Bucky?" I say annoyed, his nickname unfamiliar in my mouth "What if we turn into them again?" Bucky asks "Then we will snap out of it together" I say "And if one of us dies?" Bucky asks "Doing what we do everything is a risk James. We can't live our lives scared of what might come" I say
"Are you regretting asking me?" I ask "Because if you are, maybe you shouldn't have done it in the first place" I say getting up "No, no of course not" Bucky says rolling his eyes "Then freaking talk to me James, don't shut me out. You asked me and I said yes why are you making this so much more complicated than it has to be?" I ask raising my voice slightly "You were having your own doubts, don't stick this on me" Bucky says "The only doubt I had was becoming a widow, my only doubt is having to go through life without you again" I say "Why did you ask me James?" I ask "Why did you do this whole thing just to back out?" I ask "I'm not backing out" Bucky says
"You think, I don't have that same damn doubt? If you die doing this, this is on me" Bucky yells his voice cracking "I don't want to face life without you" Bucky says "I lived five years without you, five years James. I felt a taste of that damn life without you, yet I would never take back the few months I had with you, I won't even take back the days I was freaking brainwashed because at least I had you" I say "Then why the hell are we fighting" Bucky asks with a small laugh "Are we seriously going to argue about who has more doubts or who's more afraid" Bucky asks and I laugh "This is stupid" I say and we both laugh way too hard "Let's have that simple wedding" Bucky says "All I want is for you to be my wife" He whispers
"No matter how it happens or how small, I just want to watch you walk down the aisle to meet me at the alter" Bucky says "Then screw a big wedding" I say "The only thing that matters is that we get married" I say tiptoeing so that I could kiss his lips
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Remember me // Bucky Barnes
FanfictionAlexandra Rogers, sister of Steve Rogers, was believed to have died in the ice after the fight against the Red Skull. What happens when Steve finally finds his long lost little sister.
