A Paper Cut Is The Least Of My Worries

APCLW - Chp 14

Kimberly’s POV               

                I wasn’t sure if I should have been mad at Vinny and Fiona for taking me home before the second night of the beach party or not. When they came back to the hotel room they were both concerned and asked me if I wanted to go home several times. I told them no, but they didn’t listen and we ended up packing up. Well, not we per se; it was them that ended up packing. Them being around each other so much was starting to make me feel insecure. After all, I didn’t have all the self-esteem in the world, and I liked them both. They almost gave me a feeling that they liked each other, but I hoped it wasn’t true.  I didn’t think I’d be able to stand the idea of them being together. It wasn’t like they could anyway. Vinny wasn’t in to girls. That thought made me relax a little on the car ride home.

                Vinny dropped me off at home first. He helped me take some bags inside and asked me if I wanted him to stay. I told him I’d be fine even though I was sure I wouldn’t be. I had too much mental stress on my mind at the moment and I wouldn’t be fine until some of it got relieved. Vinny dropped my bags in our foyer and pulled me into a hug. I breathed in his scent and just wanted to kiss him. The feelings I had for him inside me stirred, and they were getting progressively worse. Unrequited love was obviously going to be the outcome of our relationship. I didn’t want to make him feel guilty for not loving me back or anything, so I couldn’t ever tell him how I felt. At least not until we were both in happy relationships five years from now; by then we could just look back on this and laugh at my insecurities. When Vinny let me out of the hug Fiona hugged me and kissed me lightly on my lips. It was a feel better kind of kiss, I could tell she was holding back. She also asked me if I wanted her to stay but I declined her offer too. I had Chloe and Teddy to keep me company for now.

                They left with reluctance and went back to the Escalade we’d traveled in. I closed the front door and grabbed my bag by its handle and was making my way to the stairs when I say my father coming down the stairs. His eyes widened when he saw me and his face pulled into an angry expression. Oh joy, my father was showing some emotion towards me.

“Kimberly Ann Carson, where were you? We had an important family dinner with the Mitchell’s last night and where were you? Not there.” He now stood in front of me. All 6’4 of him. I rolled my eyes at him. “Well Dad, maybe if you and Mom didn’t have your heads up your asses and weren’t working all the time, maybe you would have remembered that you didn’t mention some stupid dinner that I don’t give a fuck about in the first place.” I said before I stepped around him. I didn’t even know who the Mitchell’s were anyway. I was surprised that my parents even made some time on their precious schedules to have a dinner with another family when they couldn’t make time to spend with their own.

                Normal parents would say something to their kid after they just cursed them out or spoke to them rudely, but my Dad didn’t say anything. I just heard him walking away. So that was our conversation for the week most likely. I felt tears threaten to build up. Why couldn’t my parents show some concern for once in their lives and scold me or something? I mean, I just did the most disrespectful thing I could do to a parent and yet he just let it slide as if I had been using normal words. My parents were horrible role models and parents, that’s all I knew and I couldn’t wait to graduate and get away from them. I was only 17 at the moment, so I couldn’t move out or anything to get my own place now. I couldn’t until the summer after graduation, but that’s when I definitely planned on leaving this hell hole. And when I did leave, I planned on going to the government and getting custody of Chloe and Teddy.  I’d much rather have them with me than them go through what I went through for 18 years.