Yours Truly, Amari [Completed]

Chapter Seventeen

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

"Sorry na, please? Bati na tayo?" He pleaded as we are now seating on the near the seashore.

Hindi ko siya pinansin at iningusan lang. I heard him sighed before moving closer to me before hugging me from my side as he put his chin on my shoulder, kaya mas lalo akong nabwiset. "'Yung baba mo, gago, ang sakit. Bitiwan mo nga 'ko. Naiinis pa ako sa'yo." I exhorted irritatedly.

But instead of letting go he snuggled me more. "Please? Sorry na. Talk to me? Look at me?" Pagmamakaawa nitong muli na parang maiiyak na. Bahagya ko s'yang nilingon at nakita ang mata n'yang sobrang guilty at parang nasasaktan pero umiwas lang muli ako ng tingin.

I was so scared awhile ago. Hindi naman ako takot sa tubig pero takot akong malunod kaya lagi lang akong nasa mababaw at hindi masyadong sumisisid. Ihagis ba naman ako? Kaloka! Subunutan ko 'to eh. Alam naman niya kapag nawawala na ako sa poise— wala na! Finish na! It is either hindi ako mamansin ng ilang oras for a reason na ayaw talaga kitang pansinin or dahil ayaw kong magbitaw ng salita na pagsisihan ko rin sa huli.

Sensitive pa naman 'tong si Amari. He looked ruthless at times literally but he was a total softy— parang s'ya 'yung villain na laging nami-misunderstood. He was very sensitive and he will cry eventually. He would seek attention 'cause he mostly lack that. That's one thing why he is so touchy or clingy.

He have lived without his parents at a younger age— I mean binibisita naman siya ng parents niya— rarely at surely mahal nila si Amari but they left him to travel from one place to another kahit bata pa no'n si Amari at kailangan pa rin ng guidance. Agad naipasa sakan'ya ang pagiging Beta— his parents accepted him for who he or his gender preference is pero isa lang ang pakiusap ng Tatay niya—- be a respectful Beta. That is why Amari never really crossed-dress in order to provide authority for the pack. He didn't complain but rathee comply 'cause he loves being a Beta, anyway. Wala namang issue sakan'ya 'yon.

But since he was trained at an early age, particularly, 8 years old. Parang hindi niya talaga naranasan maging bata that is why with his closest friends like me— he would not be a Beta anymore in duty but a childish version of himself; demanding, war freak, bully, immature at parang ewan. He didn't get to developed his inner-self in time— kaya minsan talaga ang hirap n'yang tiisin.

He then shifted his head and let his cheek lay on my shoulder. "Queen... please? I'm really sorry. Please talk to me." He begged lowly as he pressed his cheeks more on my shoulder blade.

I sighed. "Amari, I was very scared. So, sorry, but don't expect me to get over it easily." Kalmado pero matigas kong sambit.

Hindi talaga pwedeng sobrang saya mo kasi nga raw 'di ba too much happiness attracts the altered polar. I sighed deeply again and just let his arms around me. He has to know na minsan may mga trip siya na hindi ako natutuwa.

My eyes widen when I heard him sniffing at may nararamdaman na akong basa na dumadaloy sa balikat ko. I immediately turned my gaze on him but he has his head down while his face now was almost beside my underarm. I sighed before cupping his face but he won't dare to look up at me.

This was not the first time he cried dahil hindi ko siya pinapansin. This was actually the second time— the first one was when he scribbled non-sense on my thesis paper na ipapasa ko na sana no'n sa school. Mabuti na lang may softcopy ako pero syempre 'yung mga papel na nasayang ko everytime na kailangan ng revisions tapos no'ng tapos na— pinagsulatan pa. Marami kayang gastos sa thesis paper tapos isang mali lang uulitin mo 'yung print lahat tapos requirement pa 'yon to para maka-graduate ako.