Only Temporary

It Shouldn't Hurt

Later that day
Angie POV

After our somewhat tense conversation earlier I didn't see Drew for the rest of the day. His frequent visits to the makeup room to see me just stopped and I hadn't had a single text from him.

Packing away the rest of my stuff I sit myself on the table with my feet on the chair and check my phone one last time but there is nothing, placing my phone on the table beside me I put my head in my hands at the stark realisation that I had possibly screwed everything up.

What I couldn't understand is why it hurt so much, I mean I was going to be letting him go in a few weeks time anyway so why was it bothering me. Before I know it tears are falling down my cheeks and all I want is for him to walk through that door and hold me.

One thing I knew for sure was even though it had only been a few hours I missed him, I missed his smile, his laugh, everything about him, even the possessive side he showed earlier. But this wasn't part of the deal, I'm not supposed to miss him, and not seeing him shouldn't hurt.

"Hey are you alright?" A voice asks causing me to quickly wipe my eyes

"Oh hey Lexi, I'm fine, what can I do for you?" I ask

"It's not important and you're clearly not fine" she says rubbing my arm "want to talk about it?"

"I can't, believe me I would love nothing more than to talk to someone about this but I can't" I say giving her a small smile

"You can talk about it, and your going to" she says sitting beside me on the table "trust me you'll feel better for it"

"Ok" I nod "Lexi I think I've made a huge mistake"

Drew POV

No matter how hard I tried I just couldn't do it, multiple times today I had walked to the make up room and then changed my mind and walked away. I just couldn't get myself to walk through that door.

That last time I had got as far as the door and then I had heard her talking to Lexi, she sounded upset and I figured it was best to leave her alone.

Standing by the car waiting for Stephen I couldn't think of anything but Angel, I hated the way we had left things, staying away had damn near killed me, but then it's just a fling right? But a fling shouldn't hurt this much, I shouldn't miss her and god did I miss her.

The second I got possessive I knew I was in trouble, but I just couldn't stand the thought of her with anyone but me, but she's right she's not mine and I'm not hers.

"Where the fecking hell have you been?" I call out when I spot Stephen walking towards me "you took long enough"

"Woah, who pissed in your drink?" He says stopping in front of me "I needed to take a shower, sorry I took so long"

"It's fine, I'm sorry I shouldn't have snapped" I sigh getting in the car

"So what's got you all wound up?" He asks

"Nothing it's just....it's nothing" I say starting the car up

"Sure it is" he says "is it Angie?"

"Look I can't talk about it alright" I sigh

"So it is Angie" he says

"I never said that" I growl "will you please drop it"

"When you admit you like her" he says "then I'll drop it"

"For the love of.....fine you win I like her" I snap "there you happy"

"As a pig in muck" he laughs "now what's happened?"

"I told you I can't talk about it" I sigh "I wish I could but I can't"

To my suprise Stephen drops the subject and we spend the rest of the drive in silence. The whole time my mind is on Angel and it's driving me crazy, I know I'm the reason she's upset and I wish I could fix it but I just can't get myself to face her.

When I get to my room I drop my bag on the floor and fall back on the bed. Try as I might I can't get her out of my head, all I want right now is to have her laying her next to me and instead we are a corridors distance apart.

Leaving my room I walk down the corridor, stopping in front of the door I lift my hand to knock but stop myself, turning  around I start to head back to my room but before I get there I change my mind and head back to the door and this time I knock.

"You ok fella" Stephen ask

"The offer to talk still open?" I ask

"Sure come on in" he says moving aside "so what's going on?"

"I think I've made a big mistake and I'm not sure I can fix it" I sigh