Only making love (Aston Merrygold fanfic)

Only making love part 55

*Ast's pov *

I put Kira down kissing her temple. I looked at Julia her back was turned to me. Why the hell have I done this? I don't love Renay...she was just good sex, I think she still loves me though. Ugh I never meant to relive the past. However Julia wasn't 8months pregnant, she was six. Kira was crying begging me not to go. Why did I leave I should have protested against Julia and stayed. I promised myself I wouldn't stray. Julia was and is the only girl I want to spend the rest of my life with, she's the one woman I ever imagined sharing a future with. I guess it's fucked up now. I sat in my car thinking about where I should go to. I needed help and some advice. There was only one person I could count on. Someone who wouldn't judge me and would guide me back to my girl. I drove quickly. I just hope she'd have time to help me. when I arrived I sat in my car for about ten minutes doting wether to call Julia or not. After a while I decided not to until I'd spoken about things. I got out my car locking it. I sobbed uncontrollably going towards the door and ringing the door bell I waited for an answer. "Please be awake, please be awake. I really need you." I sobbed to myself. I've just lost my everything.

*Julia's pov*

"Mummy when is daddy coming home?" "Not for a while babe." I sighed looking into my daughters pink puffy eyes. "Was daddy bad?" Kira sobbed "He was sweetie." "Is he going to come home?" Kira sniffled. "Sweetie this isn't his home anymore." "But where will daddy go?" Kira broke into a long sob "I don't know." "mummy are you really angry with daddy." "Yes Kira but I'm also really hurt by daddy." "Where? Can I fix it mummy." Kira frowned, sniffling she innocently looked at my body before replying. "But mummy there's no cuts?" "That's because the cut is here." I pointed to my heart. Kira kissed where my finger was previously placed. "Do you feel better now? I always feel better when you kiss my poorlies." Kira wiped away any remaining tears. I smiled "I feel loads better. Thank you princess." I really wasn't feeling any better but I needed to pretend, just for Kira. I really didn't want to talk about Ast right now, I was still so mad at him. I guess Kira asking questions was her way of understanding the situation we were in right now. "Right come on princess. Lets go and put your pyjamas on." I said as cheerful as I could. "I don't want to go on my own." Kira frowned. "Fine I'm coming up too." I sighed causing a small smile to play on kira's lips. "Come on mummy." Kira smiled running to the stairs, I soon joined her making our way to Kira's room. Leaving Kira to remove her clothes I went and collected her pyjamas and went back to where Kira was. Kira was stood cross legged and was messing with her Cinderella knickers. "Kira if you need a wee wee go to the toilet. You don't need to wait for me to tell you." "Sorry mummy!" Kira ran to the bathroom reappearing again after a few minutes. "All better mummy." Kira giggled. "Ok good girl." I smiled helping Kira into her pyjamas. "Thank you mummy." Kira grinned. "Ok into your bed now princess. You need your beauty sleep." "No mummy." Kira frowned. "Yes Kira." I sighed. "I want to sleep with you. I'm scared!" Kira whimpered. "What is there to be scared of sweetie?" "I'm scared daddy will upset you and my baby sister or brother!" Kira replied close to tears. "He won't sweetie look mummy is going to sleep in the spare room tonight. Why don't you go and get into the spare bed? Mummy will come up later for cuddles." "Ok mummy. I like that idea.... But can't you come now!?"Kira pouted. That same pout Ast used on me. There was no doubt I'd refuse. I sighed "right ok let me lock up and get my iPad. Promise you will go to sleep then?" "No. But after cuddles I will." Kira stated "ok then. I'll race you." I nodded causing Kira to run into the bedroom and jump into the spare bed. I locked the door grabbed my iPad making my way to the spare bed. Opening twitter while cuddling Kira I wrote a tweet.

-me and MY princess setting down for the night with bump. Looks like its just me and my kids from now on. *pic of me and Kira with our tongues out*

Love MY princess loads. Xx-

I smirked posting my tweet. Some people tweeted asking what was wrong. I refused to tell them. Nisha dm asking me if I was ok. So I explained what had happened. A few fans from the JLS fan base said how cute Kira and I were. Giving up after a while realising Kira had fallen asleep, I logged out of twitter and decided to go to sleep myself.