Can I forgive
Because I will never forget
Can I begin to see
And live without this regret
The world is spinning
But I stand still
My feet are planted
Under your thumb by your will
I beat myself up anyway
You echo through the hall
Within my racing mind
Can I give it my all
I try to Pull myself up
You knock me back down
I want to be more
Than the nothing you said I was
I stand here at this door
Can I love me
Before this world fades
Before my eyes close
Will I find the beauty remade
Or will your fists
Always find the target
Will I forever be trapped
Trying my best to forget
All the moments you left a bruise
I built an impenetrable wall
Every breath left me cursed
No one ever made me feel so small
It is dark inside this heart
All I can do is defend
Bristling at every attempt to be loved
I want to do more than pretend
These demons lie in wait
Shadowing my every step
Can I take back this life
Let it go somehow and just forget
