I smile once
Afraid of when it ends
Afraid to be happy
Knowing the sadness is now my friend
No shoulder to cry on
When I feel so blue
Always so alone
Now that they are all through
Happiness is a word
Something I have rarely felt
Where are those simple moments
That make some's hearts melt
I watch all the joy
That so many have
Why must I always feel
Lost and feeling less than half
Why must the feeling of elation
Be so far from my reach
Left out of everything
Look at me, to you I beseech
What happiness I scream
What joy I cry
Pull me from the shadows
From the darkness where I must hide
